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Here I go.Whenever I see a happy fictional couple, like canon, OC, crossover, or canon/OC, my heart just thinks back to when I was with my boyfriend. It hurts like hell and I don’t like it when my heart hurts like that. I think to myself that I’ll die alone with no guy to love me like he did, even though he broke up with me to be with his best friend. Love will evade me til the day I die. And I don’t know if I can have another chance with someone else. Because I don’t do anything (yet) outside the house. So for now, I’ll keep my feelings to myself when I see couples like that. I mean, the Disney couples are fine, mainly because I grew up to love them. Just saying.Then I asked someone who was sympathizing somebody else why she was being so nice to us. They said it's because they suffered and they don't want anyone else to have the same. But I said that I deserved it, which I do. She made a few attempts to make me happy, but I just rejected it with sad stuff like I'll never fall in love again and that I don't deserve to be happy (which is all true). That I'm a useless, worthless girl with a sensitive, torn heart and a fragile soul. She tried a few more times, but I couldn't bear it anymore. So she said that she would stop trying to help me and went to bed.I was right. I'm a broken idiot who is dead inside with no future and no friends to help me. I'm a lost cause, a loser, a freak, and a miserable girl with problems. I'm a mistake and outcast, in fact. No guy could ever love someone like that. Especially me. I would give anything just to be loved by a boy. But it's a pointless endeavor. The only thing that does make me happy is my personal wonderland, which I visit sometimes in my dreams (though I wish it was real).Okay, done venting. You don't have to help me if you don't want to. But if you do, I'll just reject you. Just carry on with your day/night. Because I'm done... Edit: I just remembered that the person helping me was a girl. If anyone was wondering, i'm not gay. I'm straight. Just wanted to let you know.
