I've been thinking about what you guys of said for a while.
To "learn how love myself" is some of the best advice I've ever gotten. It's a little hard for me to do that, cuz there isn't that much to love in the first place, and that's why I felt the way I did when I realized that she could be happier with someone else. I'm not the guy that every girl thinks is cute or good looking, I'm not the cool or popular kid, nothing really interesting about me. So when I heard that she liked me back, I thought it was a dream come true. There was no reason for her to like me, nothing they would in any way interest her in me, so that's why I felt like it was selfish to like her and want to be with her, she liked when there was nothing to like, and I didn't deserve it