Well Winchester, the best advice I can give to you is, "move forward." For you showing how you feel just shows how alive you actually are. Ok. You may have annoyed or gone further than that to other people here or to those that you have seen in person, but I assure you can move forward and be inside your heart to be a better person. We are here to learn, to understand and to find what truly matters, to help others as we bettering ourselves, not to put yourself or anyone else down. Think about life in this way and I'm sure you'll find yourself with the things you wish to do in life.
There is always a way back to doing what's right. You ultimately have that choice, no one else. I hope what I've said here can guide you to the right path.
Sincerely,
trueSora :biggrin: