Been a similar position... twice
Just remember and think of all the people who know you and would miss you if you'd kill yourself. People irl and on this forum.
Trust me, know one wants to go there, as it's a point-of-no-return
If you need someone to talk to or cheer ya up, I'm always there for you and if you'd be gone-I'd already miss you.
EDIT: See that your better now, well if anything like this happens again, I'm there. (A random kid is there for you. How great )