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so here is my first tinker bot i made and theres even a surprize under his feet see?

halloween april fools snow days opposit day ...

xehanort is a manipulator what if we had a backstabbing manipulator,or oooo oooo oooo SILENT HILL villans...no no no.. im sorry i dont think sora would last long aghinst that.

Wouldnt that be intresting people already get them mixed up sometimes(makes me want to shoot them) think of all the pranks they could pull

Ok, so this is letting you in on a big chunk of my life so please be nice...im letting you in on some things i normally refuse to share,,...you already know about the parents thingif not and you want to see http://kh13.com/forum/topic/43930-parents-ranti-need-your-oppionin/ there you go, , but ive struggled alot more then that. infact im still struggling, not with the people more the aftershocks..i just thought i would get this all off my chest so heres a little more about me. im now a 19 year old girl liveing with my boyfreind jake, the parents thing is still a issue considering the fact, well when i was liveing with my parents, my mom would often pick the locks, be it to my bedroom, my bathroom (when i was showering)...she has the same habit and shes being a pain with it at times.(she still can be abusive as well)and if you want to know why jake doesnt do anything 1. hes not really much of a fighter 2. my mom and dad are verry big on apperances, she makes shure hes not around, noones really around then, its not just my parents i was abused by i had a few extreamly bad teachers, the worst would be mrs grispino when i was 5 she was a abusive bitch, not just that she encoraged and rewarded the other kids for hurting me, (gave them cookies) i bit a girl (really hard actually she was bleeding and bruised up, our teacher claimed i was mentally unstable had me locked in a mental hospital (rather not get in to that part, i wasnt in there long ( a few days?) but i still get nightmares where im screaming/ crying in my sleep and i still have scars on my arms (faint ones you gotta know how to look..still)) ive been hurt by alot of other kids and bullies, my teachers my parents.. when i was 7 i started hurting myself pulling on my hair ( i nearly got baldspots i dont know how many times) i would slam myself or my head into things, i would tear at my face with my nails..bite my hands or suck on my knees..i used to be really anxious alot id shake like a leaf. and as i gotten older i was hurting myself worse and worse, i burnt my hand on the stove once, i used to bug my cat till it cut me with its claws, stabbing or cutting myself...i was sneeky with it little ones, not to deep a little bit at a time, you dont know how much i planned that, it had to look like a axident so i wouldnt get in "trouble" i guess, it had to not be too deep so that id bleed to death i spent HOURS thinking about just how i was going to do it, and why? not a clue...when i was 15 it started turning suicidal, i couldnt see something without seeing how i could kill myself with it, mom had one of those old corded phones in the kitchen could i strangle myself with it, hang myself with the rope swing i made, take too much medicine, knifes sizzors and sharp things could stab i thought about it alot, i wanted to make shure i did it right and didnt have a failure attempt that left me perminatly scared for life like some of the storys i herd...at, 16 i actually tried, my freinds managed to find me in time though...guess i was lucky... and i guess thats my secret, im a self destructive girl, who has trouble controling her emotions sometimes, ill get randomly hysteric or angry or Depressed, and not really know why or what to do with myself. i always bounce out of it, return to being happy go lucky but it always comes back.. hell i use tea and sugar like its a drug, i love the shugar rushes, how i feel all happy and junk,i drown out my thoughts sometimes with my music i may not hurt myself anymore not on purpous at least (like sometimes ill pull my hair or bite my hand without thinking but theres no burning or cutting or stabbing or anything that extreame) im a bit delusional at times, i think i see things that arent there sometimes there almost like flashbacks and i freak out, i probably need help but i dont want to end up in a mental hospital again... its annoying really..for the most part im away from my parents away from everything that happend and yet i still feel like im trapped i think something is wrong with my head...but i dont know..

im verry thankfull for my freinds, who were there when noone else was,who kinda took me under there wings, and helped me no matter how rough it got, that includes my online freinds too..im thankfull for jake, hes my fiance and one of the best things thats ever happend to me i sincerly mean that, im thankfull im nearly 10 years past my experation date.

one of my "freinds" thought it would be funny to hold me under water till i was unconsis, ive been punched in my stumach so hard i gagged blood beat unconsis teased relentlessly ECT....yeah i been bullied

i dont think im in the wrong here, but i want your guy's opinion, cause. yeah...that would be great. i've always been angry with my parents, PARTICULARLY my mom. her and my father are and always have been abusive, they have threatend to break all my toys and threatend to kill my cat. they have hit my head numerous times. And if i try to duck that, they grab me by my hair and shake me around/ hit my head into a wall, call me things like idiot, stupid, worthless,(ect) sometimes i didnt even make it to school because they had left me at the side of some road or highway after kicking me out of the car. my mom has nearly strangled me..shes punched me in my stumach shes pushed me, called me cuss words and such.they often played favorites with my brother too, like on a long trip going into a gas station getting him a snack and a drink but getting me nothing (they pulled that ALOT) anytime something goes wrong like something gets broken, ive always been blamed for it...theyd often hit me and tell me to stop being a baby when i was little and scared/hurt...or if i started crying when mom was hitting me shed yell at me to "stop playing damsel in distress"....i never really told anyone like my freinds told me too because my mom said theyd come and take me away then and was always saying how much worse off id be at a foster home, how i have it so much better here, when i was still liveing with my parents about the only time i was alloud to leave my room was to eat or go to the bathroom, its not like i had nothing to do theyd buy me nearly anything i wanted, but...i dont exactly think thats right...i dont think parents should make you feel worthless and stupid, or hurt you (sometimes for NO APPARENT REASON)i often DREADED comeing home, school wasnt much better, but if i was at a freinds or another person in our family..it was really hard haveing to go back.i have my own place now and my mom will often invite herself in (my mom is really bad about bargeing into the bathroom or my bedroom..i like my doors locked shes always picked them) shes still doing the same shit she always has, is any of that ok?..she claims its not abuse im being overdramatic, that i should quit being a ungratefull bitch. i just dont think its right.

oooo kickball -kicks the spikey balls-

dance party with tea

MUHAHAHAHAHAHA I WILL DRIVE YOU INSANE

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MjoPmfJaDbw&feature=related fear vanitas and his tamatos of doom fear it ...*drinks more tea* adsfsfsdgfflljkj

-slaps- seasalt icecream is better

boo you pauser *drinks more tea*