Phill's Reports [October 21st]

[Phill Devil 48]

Wellcome, mortal, to the the reports of Phillip D'loup, Phillipus Daemon Wolfgang, or, for short, Phill Devil.

 

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1st topic:

Beeing gay!

My goodness. People are always "bullying" (I couldn't find a better term) me because of it ~.~

Sometimes I even feel that I shouldn't be gay, that this is some kind of mental disease

but then I realize that this is shit it's not my fault that I'm gay and I love mass around with men, so I guess it's ok and this is just part of the evolution of my personality =D

 

2nd topic:

Loving someone that doesn't love you.

You know, some time ago I was on a cosplay group called "the silent knights" and our boss, uki was tis awsome guy's girlfriend called stiven.

He as so gentle, so attencious, so... so... MAN he was the perfect guy for me...

however, he was straight and his GF was my boss...

even though I insisted on this love and showed my feeling to him.

he kicked me in such a lovely way that I just felt even more in love with him

but I insisted again and again until he decided to be rude with me and never talk to me again...

 

but... you know, I reconized my errors and appologized to him. and he forgave me =D

in that day I felt sooooooooooooo happy *-*

I started to reallyu give value to friendships

 

3rd topic:

omg, this is awsome.

You know, I just started on the school that I am now this year, and right when I got there, I saw one guy... A really beautiful and hot guy *-*

and when I finally entered in the class, I saw him *-*

I couldn't believe I was in the same class that he was. but I wasn't assumed yet. I was still in the closet...

And guess what? he was a troll/bully/whateveryouwouldliketocallhim

he was firetrucking me up at school ~.~

 

now, I am in other class (classes changes at each 2 months), and I am out of the closet

 

and gues who asked me on a date?

 

LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL

 

this is so awsome and ironic

 

and of course I'll date him, he's hot

but then I'll have my revenge! >D

 

that's it, sorry for taking your time and thanks to read it ^^'

[Think Pink 1,967]

1) Who the hell cares if your gay? They've got some SERIOUS problems if they do. Notice how on tv shows like Modern Family, Glee, and Big Brother they end up being everyone's favorite character? I think you're just fine the way you are <3

 

2) We all go through that problem. Maybe not all in the same way, but still. I feel for you there. Just part of life, as my mom told me. You love what you can't have.

 

3) REVENGE IS SWEET! >:] LEXI APPROVES.

[GoofyDonaldSora 0]

I guess coming out makes things better in the long run.

[Godot 513]

1) I'm straight, but you don't know how much homophobes irk me. -_- Especially since almost EVERYONE in my family (counting cousins/aunts/uncles/etc.) are conservative Christians who think it's just hilarious to make fun of "stupid fags". Ugh...

 

2) I sort of know how you feel, in a way. Except it didn't end so well. But I'm glad everything worked out alright in the end for you~ ;D

 

3) Congrats! 8D And ohohohoho...revenge is always good. >;3

[Phill Devil 48]

thanks guys ^^

 

and yes! revenge is sweet >D *german accent*

[Koko 3,944]

OHMAIGAWD

I'm happy for you!

Ignore those who bully you about being gay. Embrace it! :'D

Revenge is always sweet >3

[Phill Devil 48]

I guess this thread will become my diary

 

Well, then...

 

one of my few friends at school is this girl called Amanda

I used to have a crush on here (just reminding you, I'm bi, not gay =P... ok 3/4 gay ), but SHE has this crush on Victor, other one of my few friends at school.

 

Now I passed over this crush for her, but vioctor and her keeps... hugging, and walking hand-on-hand, and messing aoround at school

BUT THEY DON'T firetruckING KISS! THAT ANNOYS ME!

WHY, DEAR GODS? WHY KEEP AT THIS "messingaroundness" AND DON'T EVEN KISS? IS IT JUST TO PROVOKE ME? DAMN, WHY DOESN'T SHE JUST SHOW HER FEELINGS TO HIM?

 

aw... seriously... ~.~'

 

anyways...

I miss Amanda...

It's been a really long time since I don't talk to her.

but today ither friend of mine said that she misses me too *-*

tomorrow I'll talk to her about this thing with victor...

 

anywayz, that's it

 

this thread now shall be my diary

[Koko 3,944]

Yay for diary threads ~

That sucks D: Maybe you could try talking to her again and try to stay good friends at least? ;; idk

[heartless101 83]

lol, this is awesome >]

[Amon 4,279]

As a wise man once said. Cool story bro.

 

No no no just kidding. I actually found that stuff very interesting. It's nice to see a bi person not too worried about what others think of them. Good luck out there. Hopefully you'll find someone who can come out of the closet that you like too!

 

And when people give you shit about being bi, just ignore them.

[Phill Devil 48]

4chan oldfags pwns everything

thanks everyone *-*

[ObsidianEagle 103]

1) eh, some people hate gay people. i have no idea why, they just do

 

2) you got a good guy there, alot of people are horrible and wouldn't forgive

 

3) lol. i've had my fair share of bullies, give him a kick for me

 

As a wise man once said. Cool story bro.

 

No no no just kidding. I actually found that stuff very interesting. It's nice to see a bi person not too worried about what others think of them. Good luck out there. Hopefully you'll find someone who can come out of the closet that you like too!

 

And when people give you shit about being bi, just ignore them.

 

i agree

[Think Pink 1,967]

Well, maybe they aren't doing anything to show it because I know that with some of my friends I have a no dating pledge thing wait for the guy to do it first They talk about it at lunch, though it's definately NOT my fav subject or maybe they're diabolical and really ARE trying to drive you crazy

[Phill Devil 48]

thanks, koolk, I totally agree

 

and butterfly, I guess you're kinda right

but still sucks ~.~

 

Septermber 1st:

 

1st topic:

I still couldn't talk to Amanda

and that kindofexbullyguy still didn't talk to me ~.~

he asked a friend of mine to tell me that he wants to hang out with me

 

2nd topic:

I felt lonely today...

I don't have a friend in real life that is really really close... I wish my 2 best friends, Let

[Amon 4,279]

1. Sorry about Amanda but I guess the guy wants to hang out with you. This is either a good thing or a bad thing. Lets hope for the good shall we?

 

2. An easy cure to loneliness is just chatting with people online. It's not the same as having your friends nearby, but hopefully they'll return soon.

 

3. Oh no everybody has a special someone waiting for them. You just need to find them and they just need to find you. Keep trying and I'm sure you'll find someone that meets or exceeds your expectations.

 

4. Yeah I got lazy a bit last year and it really bit me in the butt. Don't slack off too much. Of course everyone needs to relax a bit. Just not to much. Weekends are for slacking off.

 

5. eh, nobody is happy with themselves, they will always find something they don't like. I can't give you any advice about being a girl or dressing like one but as for the gym I think i can help. You could just build up the courage and ask your dad or you can do things that don't require a gym. Traditional push-ups and sit-ups are just as effective if not more effective than an expensive gym. This is proven as almost every military creates strong warriors without this equipment. The best part is that you can do those in secrecy without being so obvious. Jogging to places that you would normally walk to can help as well.

[ObsidianEagle 103]

1) yh, with amanda you'll get there eventually. i think the guy is sort of a bit scared of you. he probably asked through your friend because he's not used to someone like you. but he should ease into it eventually.

 

2) as long as you have some friends irl, you'll be fine

 

3) before college or uni, i'm afraid that will be very hard to find. but you might get lucky before then

 

4) just remember to focus on your school work, revise on things you're bad at, etc.

 

5)Love yourself.

as to the gym problem, i'm with you there. i'm getting a bit... let's say pudgy, and i'm too young to go to the gym. for now all i can suggest is when it comes to PE or sports, work yourself really hard, and try to have bike rides and stuff.

[Phill Devil 48]

thanks, I guess if you have friends it's good enough no matter where they are ^^

 

as to the gym problem, i'm with you there. i'm getting a bit... let's say pudgy, and i'm too young to go to the gym. for now all i can suggest is when it comes to PE or sports, work yourself really hard, and try to have bike rides and stuff.

 

the only problem is, I hate sports and I'm not good at any lol

I've never had fun playing any sports... is this weird?

 

anways...

 

September 2nd

I know it's Semtember 3rd, but yesterday I didn't have time to post...

I SERIOUSLY didn't have time to post...

 

Lemme tell you this day's chronicles...

 

I was doing a homework for school. A reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeally long one. I spent over 9000 5 hours doing it.

and then... on the fifth hour... pff

The energy was cut off '-'

 

FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU

 

I LOST ALL OF THAT FRICKING WORK!

I WAS SO firetruckING MAD THAT I ALMOST BROKE THE PC'S DESK!

 

An my mom started yelling at me, as she always does...

 

When it came back... I turned on the PC and my microsoft office didn't save it...

Yes, I was mad, but... I started crying...

It's been a really long time since the last time I cried like that...

 

I decided to just go to bed, hug my pillow and cry with myself...

 

nobody was actually carrying about it...

I started thinking... that... there's probably no one in my school that I can call a real friend... that my mom just yells at me because of anything that happens on her life... that my brothers probably doesn't love me... That I would'nt pass at school this year... That I am as dumb as hell... That everyone blames me for everything that happens...

you know... these things... I startted to feel... useless...

Not even worthy of pity...

 

But I... distracted my mind with the rest of the homework and my friend was talking to me ^^ So I'm ok... I guess...

[ObsidianEagle 103]

thanks, I guess if you have friends it's good enough no matter where they are ^^

 

as to the gym problem, i'm with you there. i'm getting a bit... let's say pudgy, and i'm too young to go to the gym. for now all i can suggest is when it comes to PE or sports, work yourself really hard, and try to have bike rides and stuff.

 

the only problem is, I hate sports and I'm not good at any lol

I've never had fun playing any sports... is this weird?

 

anways...

 

September 2nd

I know it's Semtember 3rd, but yesterday I didn't have time to post...

I SERIOUSLY didn't have time to post...

 

Lemme tell you this day's chronicles...

 

I was doing a homework for school. A reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeally long one. I spent over 9000 5 hours doing it.

and then... on the fifth hour... pff

The energy was cut off '-'

 

FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU

 

I LOST ALL OF THAT FRICKING WORK!

I WAS SO firetruckING MAD THAT I ALMOST BROKE THE PC'S DESK!

 

An my mom started yelling at me, as she always does...

 

When it came back... I turned on the PC and my microsoft office didn't save it...

Yes, I was mad, but... I started crying...

It's been a really long time since the last time I cried like that...

 

I decided to just go to bed, hug my pillow and cry with myself...

 

nobody was actually carrying about it...

I started thinking... that... there's probably no one in my school that I can call a real friend... that my mom just yells at me because of anything that happens on her life... that my brothers probably doesn't love me... That I would'nt pass at school this year... That I am as dumb as hell... That everyone blames me for everything that happens...

you know... these things... I startted to feel... useless...

Not even worthy of pity...

 

But I... distracted my mind with the rest of the homework and my friend was talking to me ^^ So I'm ok... I guess...

 

1) i'm not keen on alot of sports either, but you're gonna have to try.

 

2) ouch, that's happened to me before

 

3) everyone feels useless at some time, eventually you just start to snap out of it

[Phill Devil 48]

1st of all, thank you for your concerne, my north american friends

I love you all ;-;

 

Yes, I have been away for a long time now.

I never abandoned the forum, every day I come here to take a look, but I have just been feeling terrible these days, like...

 

I am alone... I mean, I have friends on school, I rerally do. And my friends here on my city they're nice, but...

People on school... I despise most of them, and the ones I call friends, I don't feel like they're reeeal friends, you know? there's only one girl at school that I feel like telling almost everything to her.

The others... looks like just some company or whatever.

The other friends from my city that aren't on my school. It's been a reeeeeeeally long time since I don't hang out with them. I miss them, I really do.

And the other friends from other cities... well they're just too far away... Some of them even in other countries.

and... there is one girl, that... never answers me when I try to chat with her. Sometimes I feel that she doesn't want to talk to me, and sometimes I feel like I'm bothering her. but idk what really happens.

 

In my school, everyone looks at me with this weird look for I have got out of the closet. TODAY I've recived the worst and most riddiculous comment ever, right on my face.

"why are you gay? did something happen when you were a child? I mean, this isn't normal!"

[ObsidianEagle 103]

- first of all, i'm english, not american

 

- you have a good friend, you're doing better than i was at one point

 

- you're gonna get those sorts of people, try to ignore them

 

- lol, i hate techno too...

 

-things should get better, just hang in there

[Sora96 17,256]

1st of all, thank you for your concerne, my north american friends

I love you all ;-;

 

Yes, I have been away for a long time now.

I never abandoned the forum, every day I come here to take a look, but I have just been feeling terrible these days, like...

 

I am alone... I mean, I have friends on school, I rerally do. And my friends here on my city they're nice, but...

People on school... I despise most of them, and the ones I call friends, I don't feel like they're reeeal friends, you know? there's only one girl at school that I feel like telling almost everything to her.

The others... looks like just some company or whatever.

The other friends from my city that aren't on my school. It's been a reeeeeeeally long time since I don't hang out with them. I miss them, I really do.

And the other friends from other cities... well they're just too far away... Some of them even in other countries.

and... there is one girl, that... never answers me when I try to chat with her. Sometimes I feel that she doesn't want to talk to me, and sometimes I feel like I'm bothering her. but idk what really happens.

 

In my school, everyone looks at me with this weird look for I have got out of the closet. TODAY I've recived the worst and most riddiculous comment ever, right on my face.

"why are you gay? did something happen when you were a child? I mean, this isn't normal!"

[Amon 4,279]

1. Ah yes I have the same problem, I hate about 90% of the people in my school, and I sometimes like my friends and sometimes I just hang out with them. I generally ignore the people I dislike like you tend to do. Unfortunately once in a while one of the degenerates try to annoy me. Right now it's this guy a year older then me. I don't really know what sub-culture he is a part of but it definitely is a branch of that annoying thing we all know as "Emo" . Luckily for me, is one of the biggest dumbasses in my school. I repeatedly suggest that he does the world a favor and become an hero. I wonder how long it will take for him to realize what an hero is. Right now he thinks its a good thing

 

Thats what you should try if people bother you, just use all these insults only an active internet goer would be able to figure out. You can make fun of them and they won't have any idea what you are talking about.

 

2. Meh, I'm not to sure about your Neo-Nazi friend. But since your ok with it now I guess she isn't as bad as I originally thought. And lol techno. My friends and I fight over stupid things also. It's surprisingly a lot of fun.

 

3.There is always a light at the end of the tunnel, just hang in there. We all have rough spots in our lives.

[Eterna 274]

Well hey I'm gay.

So you ain't alone here, but don't be down on yourself for it.

 

Generally though, I wouldn't have a gay relationship in school....it can lead to some horrible problems......( The principal called me down to the office and told me that my kind of relationships are not allowed at school, at that I have to end it or I would be suspended, no Im not joking)

 

That and my parents were catholic...so yeaaaahhhhhhhh not the best childhood.

 

Im glad to see that your location seems to be more accepting though.

[Phill Devil 48]

So, yeah here I am reporting about my borring life of boredom

 

besides what I have already said on my coming back thread today some other thin gs happened

 

1st - I argued a little with my BF. in a distance relationship we haven't much contact, so I got a little mad at him because he got late at home.

 

2nd - I chated with -ventus- and he's a really nice and cute boy I guess I'll make him my little gentleman in training /kiddin

 

3rd - I finally got to chat with JF, even not know her very well I like her =3 so I was looking foward to it

 

4th - I finally got to chat with Eterna, he was nice too. and, hey, Eterna. Take good care of your future husband <3

 

5th - Today I found out that VenRoxKH is a girl XXDD

[VENROXAS 152]

I kept thinking when VenRoxKH first joined she was a he gendar fail, Good to have ya back Phill