Keylore 52 Posted June 20, 2015 (edited) My name is Alison! I'm 19 years old, currently a freshman at BYU-Idaho. I play Kingdom Hearts, Final Fantasy, Legend of Zelda, Pokemon, and Uncharted. I love Yu-Gi-Oh, specifically Arc-V. I like to play the piano, write fanfictions and my novel, bake, and be with animals. Kingdom Hearts is my life. I've been with the series for a little under two years now. It has taught me so much and it actually came to me when I really needed it in life, pulling me out of depression and helping me love myself for who I am. My mom doesn't like who I am as a person, so a few years ago she prohibited me from my video games and writing to make me "grow up" and "live in the real world". Over the years I lost my sense of self as I tried out different personalities to try pleasing her, to no avail, because acting how she wanted cut back on our fighting. But I wasn't happy, and I wasn't myself. I felt like a robot, living life without vigor and just making it through each day in hopes that things would get better. I was numb. I put up walls around my heart to avoid being hurt. I grew painfully shy and scared of social interaction, in part because of the verbal abuse my father went through. I just wanted to be invisible and left alone. I didn't have friends in high school, and I even lost my connection to certain happier emotions. I was very depressed with low self-esteem, and I never felt truly alive. On top of all these issues I struggled with school because I was unknowingly fighting a strong case of ADD, which I got diagnosed with only a week ago. The bad grades made me feel even worse about myself. I found KH through my only friend when I was 17, and I played it at his house all the time. It brought me joy, and through different characters I literally relearned certain emotions I hadn't been feeling lately. It thawed my heart. Kingdom Hearts helped unearth my true personality again, and it taught me to be who I am and not be manipulated. I recently started defending myself to my parents and openly embracing who I am. My mom still hates that I'm a gamer (she has an irrational hatred of video games) but I know how to properly defend myself now, and our fights over my personality don't affect me much anymore. Now that I'm at college, I get to be who I truly am, and I've never been happier. I freely play Kingdom Hearts all the time now. I write, watch Yu-Gi-Oh Arc-V, and draw--all things I haven't been able to freely do in life before January of this year when I came to college. I'm the happiest I've ever been since age 10, when my brother's death caused my parents to turn crazy. It's a long post, so I'm sorry. It's my inner writer shining through. I really love sharing my KH story because it shows how powerful the series can be. I have such an emotional connection to it. Like Ventus, I lost a part of my heart earlier in life, only I lost my light. Kingdom Hearts helped me regain that light. I look forward to meeting all of you in this community. Here's a picture of me if any of you are curious! https://plus.google.com/u/0/+AlisonClaires/posts/JXgbWLNKisB?pid=6168612384327951778&oid=104074699720359062779 Edited July 7, 2015 by Keylore 16 The Transcendent Key, Zola, Nero Kunivas and 13 others reacted to this Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Shuy 110 Posted June 20, 2015 Very interesting introduction. Welcome! Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Movies798 1,358 Posted June 20, 2015 Welcome fellow Keyblade Wielder! I read your entire post and I think I understand you. There's nothing wrong you or anybody else, people should be who they are and embrace their true selves. There's nothing wrong playing video games because I play video games because one, is fun and I enjoyed it and two, I play video games to relieve my stress. And there's nothing wrong with writing as well, as a matter of fact I think writing is a good way to calm yourself because if you put your stress and emotions when writing a story you might fell a lot better, well I think so I don't know if everyone thinks the same. Anyway I'm also in college and is nice to find people who you can connect with and understand each other. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Keylore 52 Posted June 20, 2015 (edited) Very interesting introduction. Welcome! I hope "interesting" is a good thing, haha. It's just very hard to understand who I am as a person and why I act the way I do without hearing my backstory, so...this post happened. Welcome fellow Keyblade Wielder! I read your entire post and I think I understand you. There's nothing wrong you or anybody else, people should be who they are and embrace their true selves. There's nothing wrong playing video games because I play video games because one, is fun and I enjoyed it and two, I play video games to relieve my stress. And there's nothing wrong with writing as well, as a matter of fact I think writing is a good way to calm yourself because if you put your stress and emotions when writing a story you might fell a lot better, well I think so I don't know if everyone thinks the same. Anyway I'm also in college and is nice to find people who you can connect with and understand each other. Thanks! College is the best. In high school people were afraid to be who they were because of their peers, but in college everyone is free from those concerns and you get a sense of who they really are. I love it. Edited June 20, 2015 by Flaming Lea 1 Movies798 reacted to this Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Shuy 110 Posted June 20, 2015 I hope "interesting" is a good thing, haha. It's just very hard to understand who I am as a person and why I act the way I do without hearing my backstory, so...this post happened. It is a good thing indeed. Having a good look to someone's story is something I enjoy a lot, it makes me understand the person a little more. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Deadpool 1,200 Posted June 20, 2015 Welcome to KH13! That all sounds like it's been pretty rough, glad you're doing better now! Believe it or not, KH also helped pull me out of depression, though it was at a younger age. I am actually only 17 right now, but back in 8th grade I fell into such a funk I completely gave up. However, one summer I finally played KH, though I was a bit reluctant first since I played a demo from Dream Drop Distance and didn't like it, and also got annoyed because all of my friends kept talking about KH and I didn't see the appeal, but then I actually bought DDD anyway (games were one of the few things that distracted me from feeling awful, and I figured a new series would give me another jolt since even games were starting to get null). I ended up loving DDD and bought a bunch of other games in the series, and soon after I eventually began to feel better and better, and many of the plotlines and characters in the series have helped me out too. Also similarly, my family isn't too keen on my interests either, sadly. I'm always subtly and sometimes unsubtly judged by them for my interests too, but I've never had it that bad. Anyway, I'm glad the series has had such a good impact on you. Always be true to yourself, there's nothing wrong with enjoying anything at any given age. 2 Nero Kunivas and Movies798 reacted to this Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Geralt 4,874 Posted June 20, 2015 I'm glad Kingdom Hearts helped you in life and brought you here. I'm Geralt. I hope you enjoy it here, and I look forward to seeing you around the forums! 2 Nero Kunivas and Keylore reacted to this Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Keylore 52 Posted June 20, 2015 Welcome to KH13! That all sounds like it's been pretty rough, glad you're doing better now! Believe it or not, KH also helped pull me out of depression, though it was at a younger age. I am actually only 17 right now, but back in 8th grade I fell into such a funk I completely gave up. However, one summer I finally played KH, though I was a bit reluctant first since I played a demo from Dream Drop Distance and didn't like it, and also got annoyed because all of my friends kept talking about KH and I didn't see the appeal, but then I actually bought DDD anyway (games were one of the few things that distracted me from feeling awful, and I figured a new series would give me another jolt since even games were starting to get null). I ended up loving DDD and bought a bunch of other games in the series, and soon after I eventually began to feel better and better, and many of the plotlines and characters in the series have helped me out too. Also similarly, my family isn't too keen on my interests either, sadly. I'm always subtly and sometimes unsubtly judged by them for my interests too, but I've never had it that bad. Anyway, I'm glad the series has had such a good impact on you. Always be true to yourself, there's nothing wrong with enjoying anything at any given age. It's wonderful to hear your story. I'm so glad the series has helped you too! I encourage you as well to be true to yourself and do what makes you happy in life, no matter what anyone says. 1 Deadpool reacted to this Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Key Sharkz 69 Posted June 20, 2015 Hello! Welcome! It sounds like you could use some friends! Here, I'll fulfill that. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Xer 670 Posted June 20, 2015 Hey Alison, welcome to KH13! I'm Xer and if you ever want to talk to anyone, feel free to talk to me Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Weedanort 8,786 Posted June 20, 2015 It's good to hear that you were able to overcome life's difficulties And we need to duel nao, my Ophion is hungry Welcome I'm Weedanort, but you can call me Weed, or SLH Feel free to chat with me (: 1 Yuya Sakaki reacted to this Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Felicia Novita 419 Posted June 20, 2015 Welcome to KH13.com, I hope you enjoy your time here Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
SorRik 186 Posted June 20, 2015 My name is Alison! I'm 19 years old, currently a freshman at BYU-Idaho. I play Kingdom Hearts, Final Fantasy, Legend of Zelda, Pokemon, and Uncharted. I love Yu-Gi-Oh, specifically Arc-V. I like to play the piano, write fanfictions and my novel, bake, and be with animals. Kingdom Hearts is my life. I've been with the series for a little under two years now. It has taught me so much and it actually came to me when I really needed it in life, pulling me out of depression and helping me love myself for who I am. My mom doesn't like who I am as a person, so a few years ago she prohibited me from my video games and writing to make me "grow up" and "live in the real world". Over the years I lost my sense of self as I tried out different personalities to try pleasing her, to no avail, because acting how she wanted cut back on our fighting. But I wasn't happy, and I wasn't myself. I felt like a robot, living life without vigor and just making it through each day in hopes that things would get better. I was numb. I put up walls around my heart to avoid being hurt. I grew painfully shy and scared of social interaction, in part because of the verbal abuse my father went through. I just wanted to be invisible and left alone. I didn't have friends in high school, and I even lost my connection to certain happier emotions. I was very depressed with low self-esteem, and I never felt truly alive. On top of all these issues I struggled with school because I was unknowingly fighting a strong case of ADD, which I got diagnosed with only a week ago. The bad grades made me feel even worse about myself. I found KH through my only friend when I was 17, and I played it at his house all the time. It brought me joy, and through different characters I literally relearned certain emotions I hadn't been feeling lately. It thawed my heart. Kingdom Hearts helped unearth my true personality again, and it taught me to be who I am and not be manipulated. I recently started defending myself to my parents and openly embracing who I am. My mom still hates that I'm a gamer (she has an irrational hatred of video games) but I know how to properly defend myself now, and our fights over my personality don't affect me much anymore. Now that I'm at college, I get to be who I truly am, and I've never been happier. I freely play Kingdom Hearts all the time now. I write, watch Yu-Gi-Oh Arc-V, and draw--all things I haven't been able to freely do in life before January of this year when I came to college. I'm the happiest I've ever been since age 10, when my brother's death caused my parents to turn crazy. It's a long post, so I'm sorry. It's my inner writer shining through. I really love sharing my KH story because it shows how powerful the series can be. I have such an emotional connection to it. Like Ventus, I lost a part of my heart earlier in life, only I lost my light. Kingdom Hearts helped me regain that light. I look forward to meeting all of you in this community. Here's a picture of me if any of you are curious! https://plus.google.com/u/0/+AlisonClaires/posts/azHNwCYs4cf?pid=6162364166628171282&oid=104074699720359062779&authkey=CKP5_7ne7OOgYQKingdom Hearts sure helps a lot of people its no wonder why we love the game Alison welcome to KH13 You can share a lot of things and be yourself. Be who you are. We are all fellow astonished and loving of video games through and through. Welcome welcome make friends here the you can chat with the others and me too anytime. We are here as passionate KH gamers. Kh helped our lives in your life lessons. Your a good kid and be true to yourself have fun and nice to meet you 1 Keylore reacted to this Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
DemyxIsBest 367 Posted June 20, 2015 Welcome, none of us bite. Although a couple may nibble. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Nick Sideris 1,551 Posted June 20, 2015 That is a long and nice introduction . Anyway , welcome to the site ! Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Yuya Sakaki 5,212 Posted June 20, 2015 I know we've spoken before, but welcome to the family of KH13! Chat with me anytime I'm on. Of course, we already do. Peace! Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
HarLea Quinn 26,501 Posted June 20, 2015 Welcome to the site! Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Veemon 1,540 Posted June 20, 2015 Whoa... This is some deep stuff. I am sorry you went through so much. I am happy you were able to overcome those rough chains of events. Video games can change someone's life. And Kingdom Hearts helped yours! Congratulations on getting to college! If you need someone to talk to about any problems, or really anything in general, I'm here for ya. Welcome to KH13! I hope you enjoy the fun things this site has to offer! You can call me V-mon, but most prefer calling me Ven. Chat with me any time! Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Keylore 52 Posted June 21, 2015 Whoa... This is some deep stuff. I am sorry you went through so much. I am happy you were able to overcome those rough chains of events. Video games can change someone's life. And Kingdom Hearts helped yours! Congratulations on getting to college! If you need someone to talk to about any problems, or really anything in general, I'm here for ya.Welcome to KH13! I hope you enjoy the fun things this site has to offer!You can call me V-mon, but most prefer calling me Ven. Chat with me any time! Thanks, Ven. You're a sweetheart. 1 Veemon reacted to this Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
r0xass 79 Posted June 21, 2015 I can sorta relate to your story, so welcome to the family. Hope you'll have lots of good times on here, and if you need someone to talk to, I'd be glad to entertain you! 'v' 2 Keylore and Nero Kunivas reacted to this Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Nero Kunivas 3,046 Posted June 21, 2015 Damn....this was...a very interesting and at times, very nice but emotional read, Keylore! I mean....wow. I hope you're feeling better now and please, enjoy KH. *Ahem* Anyway, to greetings: Greetings, Keylore. I am SuperiorKunivas. I am a fellow KH Fan, YouTuber and it is good to see you here among us! Don'ttouchCCA. X3 I hope you have a wonderful time on this insane awesome site! And be sure to post a lot, make friends and most of all: Have fun! I can sorta relate to your story, so welcome to the family. Hope you'll have lots of good times on here, and if you need someone to talk to, I'd be glad to entertain you! 'v' "Allow me to entertain you." - Sub-Zero. 1 r0xass reacted to this Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Keylore 52 Posted June 21, 2015 Damn....this was...a very interesting and at times, very nice but emotional read, Keylore! I mean....wow. I hope you're feeling better now and please, enjoy KH. *Ahem* Anyway, to greetings: Greetings, Keylore. I am SuperiorKunivas. I am a fellow KH Fan, YouTuber and it is good to see you here among us! Don'ttouchCCA. X3 I hope you have a wonderful time on this insane awesome site! And be sure to post a lot, make friends and most of all: Have fun! "Allow me to entertain you." - Sub-Zero. I was so worried about the long post. But people seem cool with it. Usually I don't say much about myself, but I just love telling my KH story. It changed my life. I like showing people how powerful this series can be through my story. My story has really shaped who I am as a person, and this post explains a lot about the way I act to the friends I will make on this site. Thank you very much for the greeting! 1 Nero Kunivas reacted to this Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Songbird Rebel 151 Posted June 21, 2015 Welcome to KH13!!! 1 Keylore reacted to this Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
KingdomHearts3 2,591 Posted June 22, 2015 Welcome! I am KingdomHearts3. I was just shown at E3 2015. I am also the Dragon Guardian of Kingdom Hearts. Should you decide to be one, petition me and I will consider. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Churro 132 Posted June 23, 2015 I love the fact that Kingdom Hearts influences so many lives. I'm happy to hear that it's changed your life. Welcome to the site! 1 Keylore reacted to this Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites