I Am Sorry KH13

[Kodakliv 558]

Let me get down right to the business, what started as a simple RIP Ratchet status turned out to be the biggest mistake of my life, and I hurt my friends and family on here and I regret doing it. It was wrong and what is worse is that I lied to you guys; family about lots of things. I know I probably don't have the right to post this but I just wanted to let you guys know the real reason.

 

First of all I wanted to say I'm so sorry about lying to you guys. 

 

I lied about me and my father both having the same passion for Ratchet and Clank games. He never heard about it before.

 

That obituary was made as a April fools prank last year to my friend, and I made it around the same time I was about to be banned from KHinsider for good for causing problems like what I did here.

 

So what is wrong with me? This is the honest truth right here.

 

in 2009 my father passed away at the wrong time in my life, things where just getting good and I had a bright future. When my father passed away I had complete meltdowns and I almost committed suicide because I lost the most important thing in life, my father, and best friend. My suicide attempts got so worse that they had to take me away and recover, but as you can see I never fully recovered and I suffer everyday. Well after my father passed away my mom was diagnosed with Cancer and she broke her ankle at work the same week. This also triggered more meltdowns and I just wanted to give up.

 

I cried every night holding on to my pillow hoping that something good would happen. But as you can see things trigger every now and then I sometimes can't control it.

 

Some of you will say all I want is attention and that is true that I crave attention, because I'm afraid of being alone it scares me to death!

 

What is true about me?

 

My father passed away in 2009 from a heart disease 

 

I do love Ratchet and Clank, Pokemon, Kingdom Hearts and Super Smash Bros being my favorite game out of the four, I know I said I hated Super Smash Bros but that was a lie because I hate to say it but I hate being truthful sometimes because it has hurt me in the past with friends.

 

I have own a PS3 in the past but it broke and I never bought one until eariler this year. I pretended that I never had one because I wanted to started a new chapter in my life and let my friends pick which games I would get. 

 

So am I messed up? do I deserve to be on this site?

 

Yes I am but under the circumstances I think it's alright because a lot of crazy shit has happened to me in my life time especially losing my best friend.

 

Honestly I don't think I deserve to be on this site but I hope that my friends can forgive me and understand what is wrong with me.

 

[Sora 2,184]

Thanks for an apology and clearing things up. But hey, at the end of the day, this IS just a video game forum. It's not like you need to "deserve" it to come on this site. You can come on if you want to. No one can stop you from coming here (unless you get banned of course). 

 

Edit: Also, since you're apologizing, please make an effort to stop all the overly-dramatic stuff. It kinda gets annoying ._.

Edited August 20, 2014 by Sora.

[Danex Darkfire + 1,712]

how do we know you're not lying right now?

[Weedanort 8,786]

Thanks for an apology and clearing things up. But hey, at the end of the day, this IS just a video game forum. It's not like you need to "deserve" it to come on this site. You can come on if you want to. No one can stop you from coming here (unless you get banned of course). 

 

 

What else can I say? Just don't exaggerate like that again

[Silent 824]

Hey, I'm just glad you're  alive. 

Edited August 20, 2014 by Silent Hero

[Emrys 3,192]

first thing I read this morning was the news you were dead. it was on my mind all day.

not cool.

[Cucco 1,907]

You just need to get some help man, offline help. I know you've gone through rough times but I don't think we, as people on the internet, aren't going to help any. I hope things get better for you in the future.

Edited August 21, 2014 by Cucco

[Exiblade7 1,917]

Apology accepted Ratchet. 

[GotMilk5101520 573]

DON'T LEAVE RATCHET!!!!!!

[Master Keeper 687]

It's ok Ratchet, life circumstances make the person lost, unaware of what he is doing and sometimes he might do anything for not being alone. Apology is accepted and I am glad that you released what is inside you and told us the truth. I am sorry for your father, I hope things become better and feel free to talk to me whenever you wanted to. 

[Clouded Sun 1,232]

Wow. To believe you would actually show your face again. John. Or, whoever the hell you really are.

I was concerned as hell about you. Enough to post a topic that was none of my damn business for a guy I barely even knew. A guy I barely even know. I'm sure not many people saw the topic, but to burn a hole in someone's heart, and take a joke too far, you make people look bad. I looked like a fool.

 

But this wasn't the first time.

 

I have chosen to accept your apology. But I can never truly forgive you. I really don't think you're fit to be here if you can't act mature and hold not only people's opinions, but people's feelings in the back of your mind. But, as Sora. said, yet again, this is a video game forum. So I hope we can forget about this, person, and we learn to start over with a clean slate. 

 

Okay?

Edited August 20, 2014 by Sun Wukong

[Kodakliv 558]

Wow. To believe you would actually show your face again. John. Or, whoever the hell you really are.I was concerned as hell about you. Enough to post a topic that was none of my damn business for a guy I barely even knew. A guy I barely even know. I'm sure barely anyone saw the topic, but to burn a hole in someone's heart, and take a joke too far, you make people look bad. I looked like a fool. But this wasn't the first time. I have chosen to accept your apology. But I can never truly forgive you. I really don't think you're fit to be here if you can't act mature and hold not only people's opinions, but people's feelings in the back of your mind. But, as Sora. said, yet again, this is a video game forum. So I hope we can forget about this, person, and we learn to start over with a clean slate.  Okay?

I am so sorry, you may not see it but I am crying right because you guys are my family and I hurt you I really don't deserve to be here but you guys clearly want me to stay! I am so sorry

how do we know you're not lying right now?

You don't have to trust what I'm posting that's fine since I don't deserve trust but maybe you can see I am being honest right now I swear!

[Cucco 1,907]

I am so sorry, you may not see it but I am crying right because you guys are my family and I hurt you I really don't deserve to be here but you guys clearly want me to stay!

 

I am so sorry

 

You don't have to trust what I'm posting that's fine since I don't deserve trust but maybe you can see I am being honest right now I swear!

We aren't your family.

We are people on an internet forum that discusses a video game series. Nothing more, nothing less.

Go live your life. I'm sorry If I'm coming off as mean but you need to go out and work on your communication skills a bit more.

[Morrisone 11]

Dude, it's not really healthy to consider that people that you met online and had never seen in real life are your family. I'm not saying that you can't like those people, or that you can't be friends with them, but family is something stronger than that. Having friends that you can consider your family in "real life" helps a lot, since they are close to you in reality.

But I can't see why did you lie to people that you liked that much. Lying and pretending won't make your problems go away, and there are other ways that you can get attention without letting people worried.

I got here not so long ago, so I don't know you at all. I'm just saying that because you remember me of a friend I have. She acted just like you, and it didn't make her feel any better, as it didn't make you either.  

[Jilly Shears 2,144]

I think it's good that you're apologizing, and in the end of the day this is just a video game forum where most of us are anonymous people that have no major impact on each other's lives. If you still want to come on here, I personally don't care; that's your decision, but you need to re-evaluate your choices.Trust is probably the most fragile thing in existence, and it isn't exactly easy to repair after a stunt like saying you died. I know it's sad about what happened with your father, but dude, really? You call us "family" and yet you're willing to do a serious prank like that? That's not cool.Again, at the end of the day it doesn't even matter. Everyone has their own lives outside of this bubble on the internet, and everyone makes mistakes. I do think it's good you're apologizing and taking the first step to repair the bridges you ignited, but when you consider doing a stunt like this again you need to think about the repercussions.Sorry if this is harsh, but it really needs to be said.

[Kodakliv 558]

I think it's good that you're apologizing, and in the end of the day this is just a video game forum where most of us are anonymous people that have no major impact on each other's lives. If you still want to come on here, I personally don't care; that's your decision, but you need to re-evaluate your choices.Trust is probably the most fragile thing in existence, and it isn't exactly easy to repair after a stunt like saying you died. I know it's sad about what happened with your father, but dude, really? You call us "family" and yet you're willing to do a serious prank like that? That's not cool.Again, at the end of the day it doesn't even matter. Everyone has their own lives outside of this bubble on the internet, and everyone makes mistakes. I do think it's good you're apologizing and taking the first step to repair the bridges you ignited, but when you consider doing a stunt like this again you need to think about the repercussions.Sorry if this is harsh, but it really needs to be said.

No I totally understand I was a fool, and I was calling you guys family because you guys help me deal with the pain. If you guys didn't care about me you would say take a hike but you are helping me and I'm sad that it took me this long to figure that out. I'm a idiot and I know my sorrys don't mean anything but there's not much I can do to show I am sorry!

[GotMilk5101520 573]

*Starts singing "We are Family"*

[Sora96 17,256]

Get some real help Ratchet.

[Keyblade Master Xoncron 499]

Apology accepted, just don't expect any responses from me in the next 12 hours though.

[littleTSUBAME 483]

Thank you for being honest, it's really the best thing you can do right now. I'll forgive you, but I just have to say I was really, really mad at you yesterday, because you made me and many others worried for no reason at all... But ultimately, I'm just glad that you're okay.

I hope you decide not to do things like that anymore.

I think you're brave facing your mistakes. That's the first step you know. : ) I don't think you have to leave the site... just don't expect everybody to be as if nothing happened at all, I'm sure this'll bug many people for some time now...

That being said, I hope we'll all get to know the real you. And I really hope you'll get better, have you considered getting some help (if possible)?

[Yuya Sakaki 5,212]

Apology accepted, just don't do it again.

 

Peace!

[Javelin434 3,164]

Well I'm glad you're ok, but from the sound of it it looks like there is lingering mental trauma from all the experiences, and I'm pointing my fingers at Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. I can understand that. No one deserves to go through what you go through and a person can only be strong for so long until they break. However, isolating yourself from a [i guess] social site might not be the best solution. 

 

Admittedly it was extreme [i got the email and was dazed for 5 hours until I could finally snap out of it and go onto the site and try typing out my last words.] but... Well at least it has been cleared up. I don't like the idea of you being banned from this site because of this outburst though. Consider seeking professional help and for the sake of those who care about you on this site [me being one of them], try not to go to that extreme again.

 

Otherwise, if you need someone to talk to, you should always be welcomed here!

[Col.Random 3,683]

Fine I accept your apology, but get some psychiatric help and I don't mean this in an insulting way. If you're telling the truth then you need to find someone who can offer you proper help. It's best for you and people you care about. DO IT

[King_Graham 135]

Apology accepted.