Am I the only one who can focus on one person at a time?

[Ghost 1,857]

I don't expect anybody to read this longass monstrousity but meh, I don't have a diary and this IS in the personal section so why the hell not.

 

This has been bothering me all night. School was fine, good normal day blah blah blah, but the second school got out it's like...I don't want to say "bombarded" because that's an exaggeration, but it felt that way. I was talking to a friend, said my goodbyes, then began leaving. Someone I've known since elementary school (to be honest I wouldn't call him a "friend" but we're not acquaintances either. We talk and we're nice to each other but we have next to nothing in common, and nothing to talk about other than the one class we share).

 

Anyways so he's generally a nice guy, but he's prone to doing a lot of annoying things. He himself is not annoying, but some things (poke me in class, make weird noises or otherwise weird faces like wat) just make him a real pain in the ass. So he walks up to me when school's over and asks me for a ride. I have no problem with that but of course my mother's the one driving, not me. I told him "I don't even know if she's picking me up today, I might be walking home but I'll see." After I told him that, he asked me another 3 times for a ride within 10 feet of leaving the school.

 

Then my other friend (whom I adore) asks if she can come over my house. I love her and I would normally have no problem with the but again, I didn't know whether or not I was getting picked up, or even if my mom would allow it for today. My mother has plans most of this week and says I can only have her over on Friday, which I told my friend earlier during the day.

 

So then my OTHER friend comes out...I turn my phone on to see if my mom texted me, the thing's almost dead so it's beeping like hell, I'm all confused, the guy that asked for a ride said someone was here and walked away, to be honest I said something rude (not mean, just not polite) and in that situation my brain just was not working. Have you ever had that feeling before? I can barely juggle my own mental and school life let alone a social one with so many things going on at once. Turns out I did have to walk home (which I have NO problem with, because at this point I didn't want to talk to anybody else at all) my friend ended up getting a ride from another friend.

 

This just has been bugging me all night, I don't handle stress, or anything negative well at all, I feel like I overreacted. But with this guy, and another male friend a few days ago, those two did the same exact thing: I said something serious, they come back with a smartass remark. Twice is fine but they just wouldn't STOP, so I end up snapping at them and now it just bugs me. I can only take so much smartassery when I just want to end the conversation. Uuugh.

 

Well I hope typing this out makes me feel a little better. I think when I see them in school tomorrow I'll just say things like "Good morning" and act like my normal self.

 

But really, lately my social skills have been depleting like crazy. At least in school everywhere else is FINE but in school I feel like I haven't exactly been saying the right "things" or doing the right "things". Oh to hell with it the year's almost over.

 

Yeah I feel a little guilty is the word. But when I say I wasn't thinking I mean, I'm sure you've (whoever's reading this lol) had that feeling, or that moment where you're not inside your head and your entire being just says and does things kind of instinctively, I suppose. It happens to me a lot, I'm pretty spacey. And no not Kevin Spacey.

[Saber Lily 1,543]

I understand. I sometimes can get overwhelmed when multiple people talk to me at one time. I also sometimes zone out.

 

 

 

But in that situation, always say yes to the girl. Just...saying....

Edited June 12, 2013 by Oathkeeper136

[Sora96 17,256]

What?

[Javelin434 3,164]

I actually can relate to this, seeing how you're focused on one thing and incapable of focusing on another because the other decisions are influenced by the first one Happens to me all the time

 

And about people not taking you seriously, if you told them you're serious and they don't help, I got some bad news for you.

[Ghost 1,857]

I understand. I sometimes can get overwhelmed when multiple people talk to me at one time. I also sometimes zone out.   But in that situation, always say yes to the girl. Just...saying....

Yeah, that's basically what happened. She's...my friend Actually even if the hottest guy on the planet *coughcoughsethgreen* were to ask to come over my house, I do not like making last-minute plans.

What?

sroa pls i don need ur sass

I actually can relate to this, seeing how you're focused on one thing and incapable of focusing on another because the other decisions are influenced by the first one Happens to me all the time And about people not taking you seriously, if you told them you're serious and they don't help, I got some bad news for you.

Exactly, it's just a whole...string of things that I can't juggle. Eh, I could go into a whole NOTHER 10-paragraph topic about people taking me seriously...but I think I'm set for the night ||DThanks everyone, it's good to know I've gone another day without contracting some insane mental disease. :,)

[Saber Lily 1,543]

Yeah, that's basically what happened. She's...my friend Actually even if the hottest guy on the planet *coughcoughsethgreen* were to ask to come over my house, I do not like making last-minute plans.sroa pls i don need ur sassExactly, it's just a whole...string of things that I can't juggle. Eh, I could go into a whole NOTHER 10-paragraph topic about people taking me seriously...but I think I'm set for the night ||DThanks everyone, it's good to know I've gone another day without contracting some insane mental disease. :,)

OK. I'm sorry, but when a gender is undisclo -

 

You know what, I'll just say lol yeah same here and not finish my thought...

[WhiteCrow 55]

It's nothing serious. This kind of stress goes away over time. But I can relate to you, I hate making last minute plans.

[Ghost 1,857]

OK. I'm sorry, but when a gender is undisclo - You know what, I'll just say lol yeah same here and not finish my thought...

No, no! It's not because of gender I just don't like her in that way. Hahaha ;D

It's nothing serious. This kind of stress goes away over time. But I can relate to you, I hate making last minute plans.

Yeah, I ended up feeling better today after we exchanged some nice conversation.Thanks everyone!

[EternalReckoning 1,135]

Its part of life, i know exactly how you feel but you do learn to grin and bare it it happens eventually to most everyone

[JJForever 75]

I find that sometimes I like... Think of things too fast then when I say them they don't always come out the way I wanted.

When a bunch of people are talking to me the same thing applies, only now I have all these different thoughts on how to respond to all these different people, so I almost form a reply that's focused towards ALL of them, so needless to say it doesn't make sense to ANY of them.

Either that, or i'll blurt something out that sounds offensive to some if not all of them, because it's really unnerving to me to have all these different people talking to me at the same time.

Also, personally when people tell me things, I like picture the emotion they're telling it to me in. It's really hard to explain, but when multiple people are talking to ME, I feel all of their different emotions and sometime they just kind of "Overload" if you will... So it almost makes me like "Socially awkward" in situations where i'm with a group of friends, because I don't know how to jump into the conversation, because I am constantly thinking about what everyone said and I feel obligated almost to reply to all of them at the same time, if that makes sense... so I just keep quiet.

Yet if i'm talking to them, like not REPLYING to them, I seemingly never run out of things to say, because while i'm saying something i'm already thinking about what i'm going to say after I get that point across, or whatever.

If more than one person say something regarding what I said, it breaks the cycle and I completely space what I was going to say because unless I keep talking and keep chaining my words together, it becomes like a distant memory and I can't remember how I was going to put it the first time when it sounded so great so I try to make an alternative way to say it and it never feels the same.

It's weird though, because if multiple people aren't talking to me, or aren't talking AROUND me, or if I can like hear my neighbors talking about something completely unrelated to anything that regards myself, it's VERY calming to me. It doesn't matter what they're talking about, it will put me to sleep in like ten minutes, and for someone who is prescribed medication to help them sleep, it's not something to take lightly. It's serves for the best method for me of at least falling asleep that i've ever encountered...

 

So, this might have kind of turned into more about me than you, lol.

Man, KH13 IS like a "Diary"...

This shit is way better than counseling.

[Neo Neopolitan 88]

the only thing i would say to do is find a wall nearby lean against it and take a deep breath