Does anyone face this problem? If so, stop.

[TripleNipple 308]

When I was thirteen, I had anorexia. I thought about becoming bulimic. I tried it a few times. This was a few months ago. A few more months and it would be a year.

 

Yes, I know this is weird coming from a male. But I just wanted to be thin. All of my male classmates were. I wasn't overweight though, and everyone thought I was as thin as them, but I wanted to go more. I felt so humiliated. Here were the 90 pound girls wearing their Abercrombie and Fitch strapless top with 510 Levi's complaining that they were 'fat'. I weighed about 108 pounds. I was getting pressured more and more, until I couldn't take it. I looked at my cheeks in the mirror. Drooping. This was when I started to get low self esteem. I started only eating vegan products, some people calling me 'homosexual'. Okay, even now, I'm confused. Eating vegan products has nothing to do with homosexuality. Anyways, I only ate the vegan products, until one day. It was my friend's 14th birthday. I ate so much that my stomach started to bulge. I was really depressed and stupid. I sneaked off to the bathroom of their house. I started to vomit. After that, I kept on eating more and more. I skipped breakfast and ate so much during lunch time. I'd go to the bathroom after. I could tell that my uvula hurt. It had some kind of scar. I became a pig. I started to eat meat again.

 

I started to notice that my cheeks lost its 'fat'. My cheekbones stood out more. I naturally have high cheekbones by the way ;p. I was about 100 pounds. My stomach was flat. I was bulimic for about a month. This was until I went to my cousins' house. I'm a Filipino - Chinese person, and our family eats really fattening and fulling food. I ate about three egg rolls and I was already full. I excused myself. My cousin became suspicious. I ran to the bathroom and did it again. She stayed outside the door. I walked out and she surprised me. She told me her story.

 

To make it short, she wasn't exactly bulimic or anorexic, but she did have low self esteem. I allowed her to tell my parents. I was tired of this crap.

 

My parents hired me a therapist. I barely see her anymore, but she really helped. Now, I find that appearances don't matter. It doesn't matter whether or not your 98 or 120 pounds. Weight doesn't matter, appearances don't matter, clothes or music tastes don't matter.

 

For people who are confused about their body, listen: It's the personality that matters.

[Roxas Seeking Light 93]

When I was thirteen, I had anorexia. I thought about becoming bulimic. I tried it a few times. This was a few months ago. A few more months and it would be a year.

 

Yes, I know this is weird coming from a male. But I just wanted to be thin. All of my male classmates were. I wasn't overweight though, and everyone thought I was as thin as them, but I wanted to go more. I felt so humiliated. Here were the 90 pound girls wearing their Abercrombie and Fitch strapless top with 510 Levi's complaining that they were 'fat'. I weighed about 108 pounds. I was getting pressured more and more, until I couldn't take it. I looked at my cheeks in the mirror. Drooping. This was when I started to get low self esteem. I started only eating vegan products, some people calling me 'homosexual'. Okay, even now, I'm confused. Eating vegan products has nothing to do with homosexuality. Anyways, I only ate the vegan products, until one day. It was my friend's 14th birthday. I ate so much that my stomach started to bulge. I was really depressed and stupid. I sneaked off to the bathroom of their house. I started to vomit. After that, I kept on eating more and more. I skipped breakfast and ate so much during lunch time. I'd go to the bathroom after. I could tell that my uvula hurt. It had some kind of scar. I became a pig. I started to eat meat again.

 

I started to notice that my cheeks lost its 'fat'. My cheekbones stood out more. I naturally have high cheekbones by the way ;p. I was about 100 pounds. My stomach was flat. I was bulimic for about a month. This was until I went to my cousins' house. I'm a Filipino - Chinese person, and our family eats really fattening and fulling food. I ate about three egg rolls and I was already full. I excused myself. My cousin became suspicious. I ran to the bathroom and did it again. She stayed outside the door. I walked out and she surprised me. She told me her story.

 

To make it short, she wasn't exactly bulimic or anorexic, but she did have low self esteem. I allowed her to tell my parents. I was tired of this crap.

 

My parents hired me a therapist. I barely see her anymore, but she really helped. Now, I find that appearances don't matter. It doesn't matter whether or not your 98 or 120 pounds. Weight doesn't matter, appearances don't matter, clothes or music tastes don't matter.

 

For people who are confused about their body, listen: It's the personality that matters.

 

I hate to hear you went through such a bad time but I'm glad you're doing better now.

[Demetri Burke 11]

Happy to see that won against your struggles

[theultimatesorafan 684]

That was beautiful http://kh13.com/forum/public/style_emoticons/default/smiley-cry.png

[Roxas Seeking Light 93]

One day I'm going to share my struggle with hallucinogens on here. I just hope someone will listen...

[waytothexdawnx 1,159]

I'm a female and went through the same thing 4 times. I never went bulimic, but I was anorexic. The first time I was around 12-13. The second time I was 15 and it lasted for a year. The third time I was 18 and that lasted for 6 months. The 4th time I was 22 and it lasted for a year. The lowest I ever weighed was 90 pounds. I'm 5'2". I honestly thought I looked good though. Currently I'm 110 and I struggle everyday. When I gain weight, I can see it and FEEL it. I know Im not fat, I know Im not gross.. but its those words that go through my head everyday. Sometimes I feel so guilty after I eat something like cake or ice cream. I know Im healthy and people always tell me how they love my figure and m tiny, but healthy.. but I always just feel fat. And ugly. Its definitely a really hard thing to get through, but you have to find the strength within to just love yourself enough to stop. Its definitely not worth the health issues that can come from it, having your family and friends worry about you, how you feel (sick, faint, exhausted) all the time… just not worth it. The best way is to maintain a healthy diet, still eat treats just not everyday, and keep an active lifestyle.

 

Im really happy you overcame it and are doing better. You're perfect just the way you are.

[Sora'sMum 352]

I thought you were going to say you had a third nipple…

 

Well done for getting past your problem though!

[TripleNipple 308]

I thought you were going to say you had a third nipple…

 

Well done for getting past your problem though!

 

Haha

 

I'm a female and went through the same thing 4 times. I never went bulimic, but I was anorexic. The first time I was around 12-13. The second time I was 15 and it lasted for a year. The third time I was 18 and that lasted for 6 months. The 4th time I was 22 and it lasted for a year. The lowest I ever weighed was 90 pounds. I'm 5'2". I honestly thought I looked good though. Currently I'm 110 and I struggle everyday. When I gain weight, I can see it and FEEL it. I know Im not fat, I know Im not gross.. but its those words that go through my head everyday. Sometimes I feel so guilty after I eat something like cake or ice cream. I know Im healthy and people always tell me how they love my figure and m tiny, but healthy.. but I always just feel fat. And ugly. Its definitely a really hard thing to get through, but you have to find the strength within to just love yourself enough to stop. Its definitely not worth the health issues that can come from it, having your family and friends worry about you, how you feel (sick, faint, exhausted) all the time… just not worth it. The best way is to maintain a healthy diet, still eat treats just not everyday, and keep an active lifestyle.

 

Im really happy you overcame it and are doing better. You're perfect just the way you are.

 

Thanks so much! Please, though, if you're low in self esteem, smile And Hannah Montana was wrong, I think everybody's perfect c:

 

Thanks everyone for your support!

Edited November 13, 2012 by TripleNipple