I really just needed to get this all out

[Godot 513]

copy-pasta'd from my tumblr so grammar and spelling aren't immaculate

 

 

i am literally having a complete emotional breakdown right now

 

i have just been so stressed and so angry lately but i’ve also been wicked depressed and dysphoric and i really just can’t take it anymore

 

i can be happy for a bit but then i just lose it

 

i think i have borderline personality disorder but my mom won’t listen and she won’t let me get help

 

there’s no one i feel like i can talk to when things get bad. i’m afraid they’ll think i’m whiny and selfish and i’m already paranoid that they all secretly hate me and don’t want anything to do with me

 

i don’t want to talk to a guidance counselor or the school psychologist because part of my thinks they won’t be able to help even though i know they can

 

all of my friends and people i know are talking about how great their lives are and how they’re so happy now and that they have a bunch of people who care about them and support them and i’m just stuck here with nobody

 

i’m terrified that someone at school will find out about my sexuality or that my friend will find out i like her and think i’m a freak

 

i feel like i have no control over where my life is going and i just feel completely worthless and useless and that even though i’m trying my hardest i’ll never be where i want to be

[4Everbee 1,365]

Your not worthless. Trust me bad ppl are worthless. Your not a bad person.

If you need some one to talk to I'm here I may not know you much but I do care.

And here's some tip

When your feel sad draw something or write something or listen to some music. That's help me sometimes.

And again if you need anybody to talk to I'm here. And if you need to be cheer up. I would love to act like a crazy nut case and make you laugh. C

And your not useless. You just gotta keep trying.

Edited May 7, 2012 by 4Everbee

[FireRubies1 1,325]

I swear that I have this exact same situation in my life ... almost

Is there anyone who knows your sexuality and still stayed your friend afterwards without being awkward or anything?

They could be able to give you advice, one of my good friends helped me fell a bit better about myself.

Try not to worry about people finding out. But be prepared for the worst if they do find out but you should be fine keeping this secret if you just act like you usually do o3o

 

You don't have nobody

we are all here to listen, and if your mom won't let you get help she can go screw herself

just avoid her especially about problems

You have control over your emotions

I wish I could truly help, but this is just my personal experience

Edited May 7, 2012 by Austin Jake Tantico

[Supdudes 53]

I don't really know what to say. I'm sorry that you're having a break down and I wish I could help. All I can say is that maybe this is just one of those days and you just need a break from your life. Take a day where you can reflect on all the good in your life and leave anything bad behind. Talk to your friends and act like yourself.

 

"Who are you, and what do you want?"-Iroh

 

I can only say that I don't know how to handle this completely, when I go through rough days. Some days can just be a real hassle but I try not to look at the bad as the only thing, because the bad things aren't the only things out there even if they are the easiest to see. I hope anything I wrote can be of any use and once again sorry for your troubles.

 

P.S. Good luck with your love life I'm rooting for you.

[TheApprenticeofKingMickey 3,689]

copy-pasta'd from my tumblr so grammar and spelling aren't immaculate

 

 

i am literally having a complete emotional breakdown right now

 

i have just been so stressed and so angry lately but i’ve also been wicked depressed and dysphoric and i really just can’t take it anymore

 

i can be happy for a bit but then i just lose it

 

i think i have borderline personality disorder but my mom won’t listen and she won’t let me get help

 

there’s no one i feel like i can talk to when things get bad. i’m afraid they’ll think i’m whiny and selfish and i’m already paranoid that they all secretly hate me and don’t want anything to do with me

 

i don’t want to talk to a guidance counselor or the school psychologist because part of my thinks they won’t be able to help even though i know they can

 

all of my friends and people i know are talking about how great their lives are and how they’re so happy now and that they have a bunch of people who care about them and support them and i’m just stuck here with nobody

 

i’m terrified that someone at school will find out about my sexuality or that my friend will find out i like her and think i’m a freak

 

i feel like i have no control over where my life is going and i just feel completely worthless and useless and that even though i’m trying my hardest i’ll never be where i want to be

 

Have you maybe thought of searching up ways to calm or supress symptoms the symptoms of BPD? Whether you have it or not, strategies can help tremendously.

 

As for talking to somebody (other than us, you're free to talk to me whenever you want) can't you talk to your friends? Even your crush? It they are your friends, they should be willing to want to help and console you.

 

I think despite your anxieties, you should tell a counselor. Keeping it to yourself will only make matters worse. You'll never get anything done and the situation won't improve.

 

Last year, I felt the same way. Stuck in a rut. What caused it was my ADHD medication. I felt negative emotions all the time for no legitimate reason. And even if I didn't know the cause, I knew they weren't real and I put a fight against the drug's influence. This is where I think your biggest problem lies, Sacha. You're wallowing in the belief you're useless, ect. and it's getting you jack nowhere. If anything, no matter how exhausting and stupid it may seem, you need to fight the influence like I did. Shove the bad and useless thoughts away. It's not a huge improvement but at least it's a start.

 

I don't know if I'm helping at all but just know that I'm here and you can talk to me.

Edited May 7, 2012 by TheApprenticeofKingMickey

[Godot 513]

Your not worthless. Trust me bad ppl are worthless. Your not a bad person.

If you need some one to talk to I'm here I may not know you much but I do care.

And here's some tip

When your feel sad draw something or write something or listen to some music. That's help me sometimes.

And again if you need anybody to talk to I'm here. And if you need to be cheer up. I would love to act like a crazy nut case and make you laugh. C

And your not useless. You just gotta keep trying.

 

thank you, it really means a lot. (:

 

I swear that I have this exact same situation in my life ... almost

Is there anyone who knows your sexuality and still stayed your friend afterwards without being awkward or anything?

They could be able to give you advice, one of my good friends helped me fell a bit better about myself.

Try not to worry about people finding out. But be prepared for the worst if they do find out but you should be fine keeping this secret if you just act like you usually do o3o

 

You don't have nobody

we are all here to listen, and if your mom won't let you get help she can go screw herself

just avoid her especially about problems

You have control over your emotions

I wish I could truly help, but this is just my personal experience

 

most of my close friends know and one of them is gay so he knows what's going on, but at the same time i'm just afraid they're going to think i'm making stuff up for attention or that i'm being too whiny. it's how i lost my last group of friends and i'm just so paranoid it's going to happen again.

 

sometimes i really just don't feel like i have any control over them at all.

but thank you~

 

I don't really know what to say. I'm sorry that you're having a break down and I wish I could help. All I can say is that maybe this is just one of those days and you just need a break from your life. Take a day where you can reflect on all the good in your life and leave anything bad behind. Talk to your friends and act like yourself.

 

"Who are you, and what do you want?"-Iroh

 

I can only say that I don't know how to handle this completely, when I go through rough days. Some days can just be a real hassle but I try not to look at the bad as the only thing, because the bad things aren't the only things out there even if they are the easiest to see. I hope anything I wrote can be of any use and once again sorry for your troubles.

 

P.S. Good luck with your love life I'm rooting for you.

 

i wish it was just one of those days, but it's been going on for a while. even on good days i just feel awful all the time.

it did help somewhat actually~ thank you

 

 

Have you maybe thought of searching up ways to calm or supress symptoms the symptoms of BPD? Whether you have it or not, strategies can help tremendously.

 

As for talking to somebody (other than us, you're free to talk to me whenever you want) can't you talk to your friends? Even your crush? It they are your friends, they should be willing to want to help and console you.

 

I think despite your anxieties, you should tell a counselor. Keeping it to yourself will only make matters worse. You'll never get anything done and the situation won't improve.

 

Last year, I felt the same way. Stuck in a rut. What caused it was my ADHD medication. I felt negative emotions all the time for no legitimate reason. And even if I didn't know the cause, I knew they weren't real and I put a fight against the drug's influence. This is where I think your biggest problem lies, Sacha. You're wallowing in the belief you're useless, ect. and it's getting you jack nowhere. If anything, no matter how exhausting and stupid it may seem, you need to fight the influence like I did. Shove the bad and useless thoughts away. It's not a huge improvement but at least it's a start.

 

I don't know if I'm helping at all but just know that I'm here and you can talk to me.

 

i have, but all of them recommend either meds or therapy, neither of which i have access too.

 

see above.

 

i want to try to, but at the same time the idea just really frightens me. i've never been comfortable talking about things like this around someone i don't know well, even though i know it could help.

 

that's what i want to do, but i just can't keep them down for very long. i really just feel like i have no control over my body or my emotions.

 

thank you~

[rainbowdash64 194]

copy-pasta'd from my tumblr so grammar and spelling aren't immaculate

 

 

i am literally having a complete emotional breakdown right now

 

i have just been so stressed and so angry lately but i’ve also been wicked depressed and dysphoric and i really just can’t take it anymore

 

i can be happy for a bit but then i just lose it

 

i think i have borderline personality disorder but my mom won’t listen and she won’t let me get help

 

there’s no one i feel like i can talk to when things get bad. i’m afraid they’ll think i’m whiny and selfish and i’m already paranoid that they all secretly hate me and don’t want anything to do with me

 

i don’t want to talk to a guidance counselor or the school psychologist because part of my thinks they won’t be able to help even though i know they can

 

all of my friends and people i know are talking about how great their lives are and how they’re so happy now and that they have a bunch of people who care about them and support them and i’m just stuck here with nobody

 

i’m terrified that someone at school will find out about my sexuality or that my friend will find out i like her and think i’m a freak

 

i feel like i have no control over where my life is going and i just feel completely worthless and useless and that even though i’m trying my hardest i’ll never be where i want to be

 

I know how you feel. I try so hard to fit in, but I always fail. I'm bisexual for one thing, and most people aren't ok with that. Luckily my friends where, and I didn't get any crap from them. sometimes fitting in and such are hard, and finding good friends can be hard. but if you have great friends, they can help you through hard times.

 

PM me. I'll talk to you about it all if you want to chat with someone.

[AverageGoddess 163]

I cant say i understand or relate to the sexuality part, but as for parents not beliveing you? I got that too, my parents never belive me for anything. They did send me to therapy though and its doing okay but my friends are also talking about how they have great lives and its all perfect. Except for one who has a few problems like you, just know your never alone in these issues and even though I dont really know you, feel free to PM me.

 

You are not worthless or useless, everyone has a purpose.

[Think Pink 1,967]

copy-pasta'd from my tumblr so grammar and spelling aren't immaculate

 

 

i am literally having a complete emotional breakdown right now

 

i have just been so stressed and so angry lately but i’ve also been wicked depressed and dysphoric and i really just can’t take it anymore

 

i can be happy for a bit but then i just lose it

 

i think i have borderline personality disorder but my mom won’t listen and she won’t let me get help

 

there’s no one i feel like i can talk to when things get bad. i’m afraid they’ll think i’m whiny and selfish and i’m already paranoid that they all secretly hate me and don’t want anything to do with me

 

i don’t want to talk to a guidance counselor or the school psychologist because part of my thinks they won’t be able to help even though i know they can

 

all of my friends and people i know are talking about how great their lives are and how they’re so happy now and that they have a bunch of people who care about them and support them and i’m just stuck here with nobody

 

i’m terrified that someone at school will find out about my sexuality or that my friend will find out i like her and think i’m a freak

 

i feel like i have no control over where my life is going and i just feel completely worthless and useless and that even though i’m trying my hardest i’ll never be where i want to be

 

That really sucks. That's seriously all I can say.

On the issue of your mom not wanting to get you help, maybe you should write her a letter? Sometimes writing is the best way to express your feelings. You could give it to her to read or read it to her yourself. Maybe it'll get her to realize you really need her for this and that she should find someone to help you.

I totally understand your reservations about talking to the school psychologist, but it will make things better for you. It might be scary, but once you've gotten everything on the table, you'll feel so relieved.

People always try to present themselves as feeling better and having a more enjoyable life than maybe they really feel like. No one wants to admit "oh, everything sucks and I'm constantly miserable". We want to talk about the good aspects of life, the friends we have (which you DO have), and our families. Lots of people care about you. You're not stuck with nobody.

I don't think it will be a huge issue if someone finds out your sexuality. Honestly, most people seem fairly accepting now. Kids at my school are even pretending to be gay, bi, ect. because it's trending. I don't think anyone would be mean to you about it. If you like someone, and she's not dating, then why not try to ask her? I'm sure at the very least, she'd be polite. Do you know her sexual orientation?

You're still a kid. You have to go to school and do homework and there isn't much time left for any world-changing accomplishments. Don't be upset over this. You're not worthless. You'll do something huge someday. But right now you're still just a kid, and in a couple of years you could change the world, but for now enjoy your childhood.

I hope you feel better<3

[Godot 513]

 

That really sucks. That's seriously all I can say.

On the issue of your mom not wanting to get you help, maybe you should write her a letter? Sometimes writing is the best way to express your feelings. You could give it to her to read or read it to her yourself. Maybe it'll get her to realize you really need her for this and that she should find someone to help you.

I totally understand your reservations about talking to the school psychologist, but it will make things better for you. It might be scary, but once you've gotten everything on the table, you'll feel so relieved.

People always try to present themselves as feeling better and having a more enjoyable life than maybe they really feel like. No one wants to admit "oh, everything sucks and I'm constantly miserable". We want to talk about the good aspects of life, the friends we have (which you DO have), and our families. Lots of people care about you. You're not stuck with nobody.

I don't think it will be a huge issue if someone finds out your sexuality. Honestly, most people seem fairly accepting now. Kids at my school are even pretending to be gay, bi, ect. because it's trending. I don't think anyone would be mean to you about it. If you like someone, and she's not dating, then why not try to ask her? I'm sure at the very least, she'd be polite. Do you know her sexual orientation?

You're still a kid. You have to go to school and do homework and there isn't much time left for any world-changing accomplishments. Don't be upset over this. You're not worthless. You'll do something huge someday. But right now you're still just a kid, and in a couple of years you could change the world, but for now enjoy your childhood.

I hope you feel better<3

 

i've been thinking about doing something like that. psychologist is a bit harder; the idea just really freaks me out, but i do want to try at least, because i know it will make me feel better.

i'm always just really paranoid about those types of things; i spent a good portion of my life being told that not being straight is wrong and that you'll go to hell and everyone will hate you. one of my irl friends has been trying to get me to ask her and i know she's definitely not homophobic at all, but i'm not 100% of her orientation so i'm still a bit wary.

 

thank you~ reading all that actually really helped aha c: