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[XIIISwords 1,059]

Suicide is never the answer. You don't seem to be the problem; the problem seems to be your environment..

 

You need help. If your school has a psychologist, tell them what you just told us. If you don't think you can, print out this page and hand it to him/her. If your school doesn't have a psychologist, then try a guidance counselor or trusted teacher. Regardless, these resources should be free and easy to access. Normally I'd say to tell your family, but if your stepmother is making you vomit, that is child abuse. You will get help, whether you have to transfer schools, the bullies get suspended, or your stepmother loses custody of you. Anything is better than wanting to kill yourself.

 

Good luck.

[TheKeybladeHero 5]

Alright, I can't say I have been in saddening and horrific events as bad as these so please feel free to build on my attempt to give advice.

I'm also not sure what circumstances you are under concerning where you live, which family members d'ya live with etc. so i'll put it like this;

 

First things first. Please don't try any more suicide attempts. Cutting yourself repeatedly sounds incredibly painful so won't help your cause.

With the school things, I can only put it the way everyone does - tell a teacher. I know it may seem 'wimpy' but under these circumstances you really must.

I advise you tell your Stepmother to stop giving you a hard time as you're under alot of stress + explain your situation. Alternatively you can tell your father or a member of public authority.

You can stay here if ya like and we'll keep ya company!

[Wolfgang 735]

Come here: what you need is a hug. Life isn't meant to be easy, its meant to e very hard and unfair.. It doesn't mean you have to end it. You still have countless days to fix things with your friend, and it doesn't mean you cant become friends with other people. You just need to stay strong :]

 

I think you should come back to the site :]

 

As for bullying at school: im sorry and understand what happens..

 

If you ever need some one to rant on come to me :] Its not worth ending your life over the basics of life.

[MasterRevolver 1]

Hey, times are tough for you, times are tough for all of us, were all here as one big family and it looks like you need a friend right now, I'd like to be that friend to help you through this time, I cant help it, its my nature to want to help people. You are a beautiful individual, your amazing for who you are, my advice would be to move somewhere else start a new life and be happy, it seems like your a very good person, in fact it seems like your a wonderful individual, youve just fallen on some hard times and you cant get out of it. Your a strong person if youve gone through all that and still have atleast some will to keep on going, its time things got easier for you. Your and amazing individual and dont let anyone tell you otherwise.

[Koko 3,944]

Okay, come here listen to me.I know how many times people say this and how over done it is to say but who cares about anyone else.I've been there, I've been there in that pit, hurting myself, starving myself, making myself feel like shit and hating myself. I've been there. I was there for a long time too.What helped me though is I finally decided that I wasn't going to live for anyone other than myself.And this is my advice to you.firetruck everyone else.If people are being assholes to you, if those Juniors have nothing better to do than firetruck with you, if your step mom dislikes herself so much she has to make you feel bad about your body too, if you're best friend didn't want to talk to you, then firetruck them. Screw them.They are not better. They do not matter.You know who matters? You matter.You matter and you need to love yourself above everything else.People who love and care about you will come, if they don't find them. They're out there somewhere.As for the bullying, take a stand. Tell a teacher, counselor, anyone you can because it's not right and it needs to stop. Do something about it.As for your stepmom, she has no right to tell you anything about your body. If you're happy with your body, then you're happy. You don't need to lose weight or look good for anyone else.The only person you should care about right now is you.You will get through this.It won't be easy. It won't be easy. But you have people who care and don't want you to hurt yourself.Don't hurt yourself. Don't purge. Don't kill yourself. Don't let others bring you down. You are better than that. You deserve better than what you are getting. Even though everything is really hard, just hang on. Everything will be okay, you just need to fight for it.Talk to someone.Get help.Do something.Most of all, love yourself. If you love yourself, you will push yourself to get through this and you will come out victorious.

 

Also I think this might help

 

[zexion/ienzo 52]

Thank you guys...I'll try and take your advice but I don't believe that I can fix things with her, my friend. I want to. But I don't even know what's wrong. As for everything else, it's not abuse. I'm throwing up of my own accord - she isn't forcing me...

[Miku Hatsune 636]

Listen.

 

The reason I am not your friend anymore isn't because I just felt like not talking to you. It's because of all the stupid choices you decided to do, and as I reflected on how you treated me all those years, I was like "nope" and decided not to involve myself. You don't need me to get through these hard times. You know why I told you to leave me alone? Because you never talked to me in that obnoxious interval of time where you were fawning over someone who you thought was a boy who cared about you, when I told you thousands of times that she would only hurt you.

 

Although I am definitely not with you any longer, for obvious reasons, I cannot stand to see someone talk like this.

 

A boy at my school hung himself a little while ago and so I kind of feel for you right now.

Bastards will be bastards. Unfortunately, it's just the way of the world. If you know you aren't any of the things they are calling you and you just keep your head high and believe, you won't have to worry about suicide, or cutting. You know what cutting accomplishes? firetrucking nothing. So quit it. It isn't the answer and if you honestly believe that self-harm fixes your problems and makes all the scary stuff go away, then you are a certified sillybuns. Because what any other person in this world would do is to talk to a Guidance Counselor, a Therapist, or any other friend you have.

 

Self-harm and suicide is being a selfish coward. Don't be a selfish coward.

 

And you're damn right Twitter isn't family. It's a mother-firetrucking social network site, people don't firetrucking care for you like they would in the real world.

 

Everyone says this - but you've got a lot to live for, and I should know it. Don't quit on life and use the easy way out when you can chase your dreams and live life to the fullest. Times may be dark now, but it will pass and life will brighten up for you so long as you focus on what your positives and not your negatives.

 

You're not fat. You are curvy and beautiful. She doesn't know what she is talking about because curves are gorgeous. Being a stick-figure like me is ugly, lol.

 

EDIT: It's a shame we don't RP anymore. You would have loved the Persona fandom.

I want to consider RPing with you again, I really do.

If it'll get you out of these awful thoughts, then it'd be worth it.

Edited March 27, 2012 by Miku Hatsune

[Koko 3,944]

Thank you guys...I'll try and take your advice but I don't believe that I can fix things with her, my friend. I want to. But I don't even know what's wrong. As for everything else, it's not abuse. I'm throwing up of my own accord - she isn't forcing me...

 

I don't care.

If she made you feel awful enough to do that to yourself, it's emotional and psychological abuse in my book.

You are beautiful and you don't need to look what she wants you to look like.

If you're happy with your appearance, then stick with it. If you're not happy with it, do something about it. DO IT HEALTHILY. Who gives a shit about someone who makes you feel awful enough to purge.

You need to love your body. You need love it because it's the only one you get.

[zexion/ienzo 52]

Koko, I love you ;_;

[Koko 3,944]

Koko, I love you ;_;

 

Just keep your head high and keep strong.

[zexion/ienzo 52]

...Shelby.

 

firetruck Bel.

firetruck that this keeps changing everything to fire truck.

I just want my friend.

 

You think I don't need you?

Shelby you telling me that you wanted not to speak to me again killed me. Absolutely killed me.

 

I'm PMing you this because I'm not discussing this on a public site. This issue is personal.

 

As for everything else you said...thank you.

E-Especialy the curvy and beautiful and...saying that when I know I'm not.

 

 

Everyone else...thank you for posting. At least I know that killing myself won't be an option tonight or tomorrow...

[Wolfgang 735]

...Shelby.

 

firetruck Bel.

firetruck that this keeps changing everything to fire truck.

I just want my friend.

 

You think I don't need you?

Shelby you telling me that you wanted not to speak to me again killed me. Absolutely killed me.

 

I'm PMing you this because I'm not discussing this on a public site. This issue is personal.

 

As for everything else you said...thank you.

E-Especialy the curvy and beautiful and...saying that when I know I'm not.

 

 

Everyone else...thank you for posting. At least I know that killing myself won't be an option tonight or tomorrow...

 

Its not going to be an option at all, Were here for you, and we plan to help you.

[Miku Hatsune 636]

E-Especialy the curvy and beautiful and...saying that when I know I'm not.

 

I'm just going to keep telling you that you are pretty until you believe it so you'd better stop saying that. >:T

[zexion/ienzo 52]

 

 

I'm just going to keep telling you that you are pretty until you believe it so you'd better stop saying that. >:T

 

I Can't believe that anymore. I want too. But I dun' know if I can.

[Miku Hatsune 636]

I Can't believe that anymore. I want too. But I dun' know if I can.

 

You'd better believe it!

People's expectations have changed, but you don't have to change anything - not your body nor your attitude - for anyone, y'hear?

Now don't go fishing for more compliments, but I have to say it out right:

I am firetrucking so jealous of your body and I always was.

 

Lol. Me being skinny is not better than having voluptuous curves like yours.

There is a big difference between fat and curvy.

 

Your stepmom doesn't know what the flying firetruck she is talking about.

Don't take shit from her.

[zexion/ienzo 52]

 

 

You'd better believe it!

People's expectations have changed, but you don't have to change anything - not your body nor your attitude - for anyone, y'hear?

Now don't go fishing for more compliments, but I have to say it out right:

I am firetrucking so jealous of your body and I always was.

 

Lol. Me being skinny is not better than having voluptuous curves like yours.

There is a big difference between fat and curvy.

 

Your stepmom doesn't know what the flying firetruck she is talking about.

Don't take shit from her.

 

Firstly; I am not ignoring you. The site isn't letting me send a PM to you.

Secondly; Don't you ever be jealous of my body. You don't have to worry about DD cups flying everywhere in Gym or the creepers coming with it.

Thirdly; It's ironic because I've always been jealous of your body. I used to (and still do) think you are the most beautiful specimen I've seen. You make "stick" skinny, look fantastic. That's not a lie. And I don't mean to look like I'm "fishing for conpliments". Honest. You know better then anyone that when I say something I dislike or think about myself it's because I truly mean it...

 

I'd post the response here but I don't want to without your okay. I'd text it. But I doubt you have my number and all.

[Miku Hatsune 636]

Firstly; I am not ignoring you. The site isn't letting me send a PM to you.

Secondly; Don't you ever be jealous of my body. You don't have to worry about DD cups flying everywhere in Gym or the creepers coming with it.

Thirdly; It's ironic because I've always been jealous of your body. I used to (and still do) think you are the most beautiful specimen I've seen. You make "stick" skinny, look fantastic. That's not a lie. And I don't mean to look like I'm "fishing for conpliments". Honest. You know better then anyone that when I say something I dislike or think about myself it's because I truly mean it...

 

>Lol I was wondering wtf was going on on your side. It's all right, though. I'm alternating between this and Persona 4.

>They aren't looking at your boobs, Allie. They are staring into your S o u l. Lol.

>Thanks very much. I just don't like seeing you put yourself down. :C

 

Awkwardness is now emanating from this thread because we are just sitting here complimenting each other haha. Talk about derping.

 

EDIT: No I still have your number. It's alright if you texted it.

Edited March 27, 2012 by Miku Hatsune

[zexion/ienzo 52]

 

 

>Lol I was wondering wtf was going on on your side. It's all right, though. I'm alternating between this and Persona 4.

>They aren't looking at your boobs, Allie. They are staring into your S o u l. Lol.

>Thanks very much. I just don't like seeing you put yourself down. :C

 

Awkwardness is now emanating from this thread because we are just sitting here complimenting each other haha. Talk about derping.

 

EDIT: No I still have your number. It's alright if you texted it.

 

Sent.

And I don't mean to make it all awkward ;_;

IneverdidgetintoPersona.

[Miku Hatsune 636]

Sent.

And I don't mean to make it all awkward ;_;

IneverdidgetintoPersona.

 

Do et.

It's so great. Like, it's like one big drug.

There's a Big Gay Bathhouse and gayness and eidfuskewus lesbians isojfeiwsjusio it's so awesome.

 

If you don't feel like spending money on the game (even though you should because the art is so much better), then watch the anime

PleaseIbegofyouuu

[zexion/ienzo 52]

 

Do et.

It's so great. Like, it's like one big drug.

There's a Big Gay Bathhouse and gayness and eidfuskewus lesbians isojfeiwsjusio it's so awesome.

 

If you don't feel like spending money on the game (even though you should because the art is so much better), then watch the anime

PleaseIbegofyouuu

 

I-I'll try. I got back into Pandora Hearts.

After re-reading our RP ^^'

And you know how I am in terms of the fandoms I'm currently on ^^'

[Miku Hatsune 636]

I-I'll try. I got back into Pandora Hearts.

After re-reading our RP ^^'

And you know how I am in terms of the fandoms I'm currently on ^^'

 

That RP was so old. Lol.

I'd like to finish it, and I've got the notes for it on my computer still. oAo

Idk the whole JackxGilbert thing was pretty damn cute.

 

I'm not forcing you to like it or anything lol. It just feels weird without having someone else to talk about it with.

[zexion/ienzo 52]

 

 

That RP was so old. Lol.

I'd like to finish it, and I've got the notes for it on my computer still. oAo

Idk the whole JackxGilbert thing was pretty damn cute.

 

 

I'm not forcing you to like it or anything lol. It just feels weird without having someone else to talk about it with.

 

I'd totally RP it with you now. Without hesitation. But KH13 is blocked on my desktop. Unless you'd like to do it on Tumblr. In which case you could call my home phone and I could tell you how to do it all set up n' shit.

I usually haaaate Tumblr RP but like, it's totally worth it to RP with my only equal ;w;

NO ONE COULD COMPARE TO YOUR SKILLS.

[Miku Hatsune 636]

I'd totally RP it with you now. Without hesitation. But KH13 is blocked on my desktop. Unless you'd like to do it on Tumblr. In which case you could call my home phone and I could tell you how to do it all set up n' shit.

I usually haaaate Tumblr RP but like, it's totally worth it to RP with my only equal ;w;

NO ONE COULD COMPARE TO YOUR SKILLS.

 

My Tumblr is always active nowadays lol. I could make another account if you want. (I don't want my school friends Sarah and Vanessa to see it. >_< Even though Sarah RPs too lol.)

I hate Tumblr RPing too lol. It's like ugh so degrading for some reason. D8

Anyways I'll call in 15 minutes.

[zexion/ienzo 52]

 

 

My Tumblr is always active nowadays lol. I could make another account if you want. (I don't want my school friends Sarah and Vanessa to see it. >_< Even though Sarah RPs too lol.)

I hate Tumblr RPing too lol. It's like ugh so degrading for some reason. D8

Anyways I'll call in 15 minutes.

 

Okay