WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME X(?!?!

[*Rikku* 90]

I'm Roxana 13 years old and i was a VERRY happy person. I have back problems and i ware brace and i need to do some special sports. Lately i can do nothing. And i am depressed for no special resons! I dont eat i dont sleep i wont do my sports i dont study i dont laugh (exept sometimes) i cry every night. Its 3 days i hadnt eat a thing (exept small stuff like a candy) or slept more then an hour. Last 2 days i only cried yesterday i yalled at myom and then get crazy and brake my stuff and today i almost kill my self in English class! I used a sharp thing and cut my self and then the blood came out and it was TOO MUCH BLOOD so i fainted and lost blood and my bestfriend saved me she put my hand in cold water and pushed the scar. (btw things got dark wen i fainted and it was soo relaxing!) she slaped me so hard and then cried...

Im not lonley i have lots of friends and today 2 cried 8 huged me and 2 called me idiot. And till end of school no one left me so i wont hurt my self and they all bigan to cheer me up... But i cant control my emotions all im looking forword to is death! WHAT IN THE WORLD IS WRONG WITH ME?!?!?

 

Sorry for grammer

[Nikolasvanitas 358]

please dont try hurting yourself,think about your family and your friends ,they dont wont you to harm yourself

[Guest Lady Dreana]

What have you done to cause this?

[Truthbringer 210]

What have you done to cause this?

 

This.

 

There must be some reason as to why u're doing this in the first place!

 

DO NOT ACCEPT DEATH, IT IS THE END OF EVERYTHING FOR YOU! FIGHT IT BACK!

[Iamkingdomhearts1000 1,170]

Death is a stupid thing to die for, if you give in to it, that's it, no reset buttons, no nothing so don't give up Rikku for your my friend and i want you to keep on living even if there are troubled times for you to deal with so please keep on living and don't ever give up on living either as a request from me, please?

[*Rikku* 90]

I dont know how to control it + i really need to know whats wrong with me

[Kirie 3,489]

I'm Roxana 13 years old and i was a VERRY happy person. I have back problems and i ware brace and i need to do some special sports. Lately i can do nothing. And i am depressed for no special resons! I dont eat i dont sleep i wont do my sports i dont study i dont laugh (exept sometimes) i cry every night. Its 3 days i hadnt eat a thing (exept small stuff like a candy) or slept more then an hour. Last 2 days i only cried yesterday i yalled at myom and then get crazy and brake my stuff and today i almost kill my self in English class! I used a sharp thing and cut my self and then the blood came out and it was TOO MUCH BLOOD so i fainted and lost blood and my bestfriend saved me she put my hand in cold water and pushed the scar. (btw things got dark wen i fainted and it was soo relaxing!) she slaped me so hard and then cried...

Im not lonley i have lots of friends and today 2 cried 8 huged me and 2 called me idiot. And till end of school no one left me so i wont hurt my self and they all bigan to cheer me up... But i cant control my emotions all im looking forword to is death! WHAT IN THE WORLD IS WRONG WITH ME?!?!?

 

Sorry for grammer

 

WHY YOU DIDNT TELL ME THIS!!!!!????? :'(

[Iamkingdomhearts1000 1,170]

Even if you don't know how to just please still live on because if you really do die, you won't ever get to talk to me,ami or the others ever again, not ever so don't ever give up on your life since things like sports and video games where you can just start all over again don't even compare to life.

[HarLea Quinn 26,501]

Theres nothing in this world worth killing yourself over.Problems are always temporary and death is permanent...Feelings and problems come and go and so is life. So many times and places we must go through that shape who we are and who we become. You will get through this and many other things in life as long as you know this.

[Guest Lady Dreana]

Theres nothing in this world worth killing yourself over.Problems are always temporary and death is permanent...Feelings and problems come and go and so is life. So many times and places we must go through that shape who we are and who we become. You will get through this and many other things in life as long as you know this.

 

Well said

[Shana09 5,769]

I told you this before, DONT KILL YOUR SELF OVER THAT! Roxana your not stupid, your just lost. Your basically dont know how to take control of your self and think death is the only way to end the suffering, but it really isn't. Life isn't just given to you, you have to do something with it, so make your life better the way you want to. It seems you want people to care about you, which I understand, I have been in the same situation as you. But to tell the truth, I think they do, thats the reason you still live today. Dying will make everyone else around you suffer, you would not like that right?

 

Now you experienced being legally dead for a few minutes, you know its scary and horrifying. It shows you are not ready to die yet, you have a whole life ahead of you. I was thinking of doing the same, but accidentally cut my self because of some glasses broke by accident and I fainted. I hated that feeling, it was horrible. So sometimes you need to cross the line to figure this out, death is never ever the answer.

[*Rikku* 90]

Yeah shany ur right i taste it today too thank u

[Marley_Aqua_33 265]

I told you this before, DONT KILL YOUR SELF OVER THAT! Roxana your not stupid, your just lost. Your basically dont know how to take control of your self and think death is the only way to end the suffering, but it really isn't. Life isn't just given to you, you have to do something with it, so make your life better the way you want to. It seems you want people to care about you, which I understand, I have been in the same situation as you. But to tell the truth, I think they do, thats the reason you still live today. Dying will make everyone else around you suffer, you would not like that right? Now you experienced being legally dead for a few minutes, you know its scary and horrifying. It shows you are not ready to die yet, you have a whole life ahead of you. I was thinking of doing the same, but accidentally cut my self because of some glasses broke by accident and I fainted. I hated that feeling, it was horrible. So sometimes you need to cross the line to figure this out, death is never ever the answer.

^This.

 

It has already been said, by many others, one important topic:

 

--> DEATH IS NOT THE WAY TO FEEL ALRIGHT AGAIN! (you're 13 years old and you already want it to end? Don't think like that.)

 

I am putting a choice in, maybe, hormones . Of course, there can be another reason(s), such as you're feeling lost, like Shana said; but I am no psychologist to say for sure.

 

Now, I ask you one thing: Roxanne, doesn't your school have psychologist?

 

In the situation you're living right now, if you really want to know what's wrong with you (if there is something), a psychologist can be much of a help to you to understand what's going on. Most of school psychologists are good, so you don't need to shy or worry at all. Getting help is not a shame.

And, of course, you have all the people who love you around you, supporting you. Don't give up on your life and break the hearts the ones who love you.

 

Wish you luck, my dear and think positive: This is just a bad phase, sooner or later everything's gonna be alright. *Hugs you*

[Shana09 5,769]

Yeah shany ur right i taste it today too thank u

 

Glad I can help. (>http://kh13.com/forum/public/style_emoticons/default/happy.png)>

 

So now you know death is never the answer.

[*Rikku* 90]

@marley: it have but i hate her she tells every single word to my parents.

[Iamkingdomhearts1000 1,170]

@marley: it have but i hate her she tells every single word to my parents.

 

So does this mean you have realised that death is never the answer?

[4Everbee 1,365]

first thing first.

Tell your mom whats going on with you she can help you out. Don't say. "I can't tell my mom." You can!

Your only 13 you shouldn't be cutting.

This could just be cause of puberty.

Don't cut yourself btw!

[*Rikku* 90]

@i am: yeah deaths not my next secends!!!

@4everbee: i dont want my parents to know

[Marley_Aqua_33 265]

@marley: it have but i hate her she tells every single word to my parents.

 

You have some solutions, like:

 

- Talk to your parents, which, actually, is very good because that's their job -> helping their child in need, blah, blah... The parents are not just there to 'scream' at their children or other things that are good or bad, they're there to help in whatever you need until you gathered enough age and maturity to 'run' of your own... Just to say for you to talk with them and then, talk to your psychologist (if you still need to);

 

- Go to a private psychologist (one you like), tell your parents that you need a little more help for you to feel alright, beacuse the phase you're been trought is a little difficult to pass of your own. I am almost sure even your friends would go with you, like taking you to the psychologist if you asked them to.

[4Everbee 1,365]

@i am: yeah deaths not my next secends!!!

@4everbee: i dont want my parents to know

 

To firetrucking bad. You have to tell them. Your not going to get better if you don't.

[*Rikku* 90]

I think i wont tell them. No matter what

[Junko 2,815]

with a problem like this, you have to tell someone. if you're nnot comfortable talking to your parents about this, what about a guidance counselor or some adult that can help you. if you want to feel happy again you need to get help

 

plus, i think you need a hug

 

[Koko 3,944]

Talk to an adult, tell them how you feel.

This may be just teenage hormones or something worse, so definitely seek professional help

 

I think i wont tell them. No matter what

 

I'm sorry but that makes it seem like you don't WANT to get help

You need to tell your parents.

Suck it up and tell them

 

I told my parents everything and guess what, they got me help and I'm feeling a hell of a lot better now.

[*Rikku* 90]

Thanks koko but they will bo worried

[ChildOfTerra_FriendOfRiku 135]

Thanks koko but they will bo worried

 

They have good reason to be worried. You're obviously going through something that's going to be a problem, and if you're shutting your parents out of it, it's going to cause even more problems because you'll be worried about keeping it a secret from them, and that'll just make things worse. Believe me, I've been there, I KNOW.

Tell them that you're having some problems and that you'd like to see a counselor OUTSIDE of school at the very least. they should know that something's up, even if you don't go into detail.