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[Koko 3,944]

because apparently I have to justify why I hate Christmas

sure, presents are good, I'm just a selfish person I guess

but why I hate it

let's see

I've spent every Christmas crying

basically

Every

single

firetrucking

one

When I was younger it was due to my cousins calling me fat and ugly and ignoring me and leaving me out of everything while sayings things behind my back. As well as some of the firetrucking adults making fun of me as well.

Pre-teen ish years was due fighting between my parents and their constant arguing around the Holiday season and I'm kind of one of those people who if someone feels bad or angry, I feel the same and I tend to cry when I'm upset.

Oh and recently, last year, my mom did a fantastic job at humiliating me and yelling at me in front of her family (who were the ones that made fun of me and such) and then actually yelled at my cousins and aunts and uncles over something stupid and made me feel like utter crap to the point that I started sobbing and screaming and had a melt down where I ran to the bathroom and locked myself in there for a good hour

and that just ruined the whole night for me

As well as the fact that the time between Thanksgiving and Christmas was the time I had started cutting and I precisely remember having 63 cuts on Christmas eve and thanking God that it was winter so I could wear long sleeves

and that is why

I hate Christmas

and the winter in general

I suspect seasonal depression of some sort since this is always the time of year I hate and dread because feelings of depression always hit me

But you know

that's probably not a good reason to hate Christmas

I'm just a grumpy Grinch

[Deadshot 666]

That Sucks Koko and i don't know what eles to say so hopefully this song makes you feel better.Hopefully thing get better....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cZBe7_lE9lE

[Khrulesbbs 574]

cutting isnt good i would know

[Koko 3,944]

cutting isnt good i would know

 

I haven't cut in forever, but two years ago when I started it was around the Holidays

fun

[Khrulesbbs 574]

i cut anytime really the type of clinical depression i get is uncurable and i cut whenever i died one time luckly i was saved in the hospital

[AnsemTheWise 1,114]

I hate my family. I really do. They hate each other, and there's nothing I can do about it.

 

I make the holidays for me, no one else.

[animemylove 439]

i cut anytime really the type of clinical depression i get is uncurable and i cut whenever i died one time luckly i was saved in the hospital

 

i don't know about uncurable there are tons of treatments for depression ..

[Khrulesbbs 574]

i don't know about uncurable there are tons of treatments for depression ..

 

Not for the type i have

[Wisdomform 221]

I'm sorry to be reading this Koko,

I hope one year you have a great holiday- no one should ever have to feel like that.

[Sora96 17,256]

That really sucks, Koko. I feel sorry for you.

[Think Pink 1,967]

Not for the type i have

 

There's literally no type of incurable depression. That's just how you feel, not how it is. Try and look for help, whether it be through a counselor, medicine, or whatever. They can completely cure you. (:

 

@Koko

I'm so sorry, Koko. To be honest, there's really nothing I can say that'll make you feel better. I just hope this year all goes well for you and that all the blockheads in your family realize how stupid they are. Just take what they say with a grain of salt. I think we're all aware you're better than they could even dream of being.

[Ivan 969]

The more and more I hear about your family, Koko, the more I want to just scoop you up away from them ):

 

I'm sorry you haven't been able to have any good holidays with them, especially since Christmas is supposed to be about being with your family. But hearing about your family, I really just want to kick them all in their cunts/mancunts. Your family has no right to say those things to you. They're supposed to love and nurture you, but all they've done is the exact opposite: bully and torture.

 

I wish I could do something to help, I really do. Unfortunately there are 24 or so states, and computer screens, between us.

 

Maybe some day in the future I'll get the rest of the crew together and we'll have one big Christmas party. So at least that way you can celebrate the holiday with people whose company you enjoy. Hopefully one year we can make that happen!

 

But for now, I don't have many words of advice (since honestly I've never met someone whose family was as awful as yours). All you can do is hope your family won't be dicks this year.

 

If they are, you can always turn to your moirail. I'll try to be on as much as possible if you ever need someone to talk/vent to.

[TheApprenticeofKingMickey 3,689]

because apparently I have to justify why I hate Christmas

sure, presents are good, I'm just a selfish person I guess

but why I hate it

let's see

I've spent every Christmas crying

basically

Every

single

firetrucking

one

When I was younger it was due to my cousins calling me fat and ugly and ignoring me and leaving me out of everything while sayings things behind my back. As well as some of the firetrucking adults making fun of me as well.

Pre-teen ish years was due fighting between my parents and their constant arguing around the Holiday season and I'm kind of one of those people who if someone feels bad or angry, I feel the same and I tend to cry when I'm upset.

Oh and recently, last year, my mom did a fantastic job at humiliating me and yelling at me in front of her family (who were the ones that made fun of me and such) and then actually yelled at my cousins and aunts and uncles over something stupid and made me feel like utter crap to the point that I started sobbing and screaming and had a melt down where I ran to the bathroom and locked myself in there for a good hour

and that just ruined the whole night for me

As well as the fact that the time between Thanksgiving and Christmas was the time I had started cutting and I precisely remember having 63 cuts on Christmas eve and thanking God that it was winter so I could wear long sleeves

and that is why

I hate Christmas

and the winter in general

I suspect seasonal depression of some sort since this is always the time of year I hate and dread because feelings of depression always hit me

But you know

that's probably not a good reason to hate Christmas

I'm just a grumpy Grinch

 

Holy mother of God, Koko. How do you ever become happy or cheerful after all the shit you go through?