Lonely..and have been for a while

[Cricket 1,180]

Ok, I know I am not the most active member here and I do not get on a lot, but I do try. I truly like helping other people out with their problems, but the secret is that my world is completely lonely...

 

I have been lonely ever since 8th grade and now I am a senior in highschool. I do not have a best friend or really any close friends. I am not a bad person and I try to befriend everyone, but sadly it just doesn't work. I do have a boyfriend and I am happy with just one person but sometimes I want to laugh and enjoy my time with other people. Majority of everyone at my school are preps and b*tchy girls. I am the most different person in my class. I am the only outcast, but there is nothing different about me. I am athletic, preppy looking and all that, but I really don't care about that. I just want to find people who are not faking their way into other people's lives and I am afraid to get close to people around here. It is such a small town and I have seen too many bad things happen in it. I don't know why I am never invited to parties or events with my senior class, which is pretty sad because it is my last year... All I can say is that I am glad this stupid year is almost over. I am ready to leave the fake people behind, but there are decent people who go to the school too. For 5 years I have tried my hardest become friends with them and I have kept many secrets that could ruin a lot of them, so I just don't understand... I am pretty much ready to grow up, my life feels like it is in a still moment. So anyone feel the same way? Advice?

 

Discuss.

[xionultima 44]

Well I recently found out the person who I thought was my best friend went around telling everyone she knew that I was a whore at the moment all I can do is ignore her and all her friends

[Larxene12 86]

awww sorry! but maybe you ARE different, in a good way. Like, ugh I am bad at this bcos i have a bad life at the moment to but uhhhhhhhh

well all you can do is try, and maybe try making frends who DONT go to ur school? and outside of town? idk, but maybe you are just better than them. Dont let it bother you! Just enjoy life as much as you can! :P

[HelpMeRan-Sama 141]

8D your class is like my class~!!! But I think you will find a friend soon, cause that happened to me once. I was 9 my friend moved to somewhere else, so I was lonely when I was 10, but when I was 11 and me and some classmates became prefects, we have to go duty and have recess 5 minutes earlier X9 I saw a girl (now my closest friend) talking to other prefects about Pokemon (lol) I was interested and talked to her about Pokemon too And that's how she became my friend A friend will show up anytime so dun worry

[Luzzekatt 76]

I was lonley and bullied by everyone in my school from 2 to the 8th grade.

I'm in 10th now .. >.>

 

and one of my best friends stole my boyfriend .. that bitch.

[Cricket 1,180]

xionultima- why did she do that? That is mean, and I hope she will apologize to you. Try to find out why she is feeling that way about you.

 

Larxene12- Thanks. I like your cheerful attitude and yeah I need to try to get in touch with people out of town. It's hard finding good friends around here, but you make a good point of talking to other people out of town. I will try that. I hope everything will work out for you and keep up with that kind of attitude. ^^

 

HelpMeRan-Sama - That sounds just like me! My best friend moved away in 7th grade why must they always move away? I always thought that if I brought up the stuff I liked at school like anime or videogames or whatever would be weird haha, but I'll give it a try and see if there is anyone like that around. I think there are people like that at my school but they are younger classmen. That's cool that you found a good friend and it gives me confidence.

 

luzzekatt- wow, that was rude of her to do that and confront her about it.. I guess we all suffer from problems like this. Why do other girls do that? D:

[Luzzekatt 76]

I don't know ... It still hurts when I think about it ..

but still .... the guy was a player, we talked about it later ..

[Cricket 1,180]

That's good that you two talked about it, and yeah don't associate with players... It's not worth getting hurt over a guy who is like that and I hope he learns his lesson and someone makes him realizes it is wrong to be that way.

[Larxene12 86]

Wow, I helped somebody! latley its like I am the one who needs helping! lol!

but yeah, that is what my cuzin did! and my attitude is prob FAR AWAY than 'up' lol!

but good luck!

[xionultima 44]

yeah I asked her why she went around telling everyone she hasn't answered it .

[HelpMeRan-Sama 141]

Great~Found anyone yet? (besides in kh13 )

[Cricket 1,180]

Actually, I did but they were the wrong crowd D: The advice is really helping and I have tried to hang out with others and I am finding out more about myself and who I want to be around. All of you are great and wonderful~ :D

[Larxene12 86]

awwww thanks! i <3 helping others!

[HelpMeRan-Sama 141]

Thanks for sain that (I'm not really good at helping people )

[sneezes 73]

Aww, Cricket. D;

 

Meh, I had to experience that when I was in 6th grade; I had gone to the same elementary school with the same people from Kindergarten up to 5th grade; then, my mom for some reason, decided to move me to a different intermediate than the one that I went to; I had a hard time adjusting; new faces, new people, new way of life, first year of intermediate school, pretty much everything; the point is, (so I won't babble on and on), that I made new friends that year that I love a lot and I don't know what I would do without them, by speaking up; talking to them, laughing and smiling more. Now I have more than enough friends than I would've asked for and I'm enjoying my life.

 

Maybe try doing that. I can't guarantee anything, sadly. But, it's your last year in high school and things can change. =)

[xRayne93 10]

i feel like that now.. but.. i think i'm an outcast b/c im pretty shy to be honest.. sure, online, im all happy and smileys but.. in RL im pretty quiet and shy.. and keep to myself. and If i do get any friends (like say the 3 ppl i hang out w/ in gym everyday) it seems like i just kinda walk behind them and keep to myself instead of walk beside them and laugh and talk.

 

and It's like.. being online, watching anime, and playing video games are my only escape.

[Deadshot 666]

that sucks i hope you find a friend soon you desevere it and everyone storys are really sad and if any needs anyone to talk to i'm here

[gambler-of-fate 1]

Ah but your not alone You has US...I mean I'm not the most healthy of people but if you need to talk drop me a PM I mean thats what I'm here for =) and I'm sure the others would help too right guys?

 

If you lived near me I'd say to come chill with me but I don't think you do.

[SavageNymph 7]

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8D Late but oh well -- WELL here's my story.

From 1st grade 'till the middle of 7th grade, I had good friends but by all the guys/most popular people and even my friends I was known as the "Teacher's Pet" although my GOOD friends didn't care.

 

The rest of 7th and all of 8th, I lost contact with all primary school friends, made new friends who all of them backstabbed me at least once. I had become the "slut/whore" to half the guys and half the popular people (all popular guys AND most girls, yes we're that sad we have popular people and not just ... everyone o-o).

 

Now, I started High School a week ago. All girls. SOME of the bitchy popular girls went to another All Girls school. Half of my friends went to other High Schools too. The 35 or whatever remaining are made up of 10 good trust-worthy friends, the rest, i don't know REALLY well and don't hang out with out of school. My dreams of ever becoming popular or at least not hated and friendly with populars died this year. I just KNEW it would never happen. I am lucky though because over 50% of the Grade 9s are from my old school and the people who don't like me will be friendly if i'm the only on around compared to others who they hate more. Im excluding the whores here but oh well. I might make new friends though, im OVERJOYED because I finally found another anime lover! Last year all Anime was known as little kidish, and nerd-like. I don't know her that well, kinda akward making new friends here. We were in IT and updating our school profiles on our schools forum/email/notices/website thingy and she put a Death Note character and I'm like ADFGHJUFKD WOW. (I'd put up Miku .. Vocaloid. ) Nyeeeh, this year is gunna suck I think! It's okay though.

 

EVERYTHING I SAID SOUNDS LIKE SOO MORE DRAMATIC THAN IT ACTUALLY IS DONT WORRY FOLKS.

 

Sounds Bleh but I felt like babbling today.

 

Crickettttt <3 - the idiots at your school don't get how amazing you ARE! Maybe some KH13 members live near .. ish ~ I'm sure you could meet up! I'm sure there's someone at your school! Try Grade12's or 11's .. I mean, age doesn't matter, who cares if your Form 5 .. I mean Grade 13 GRR I HATE CONVERTING FROM NZ TO AMERICAN LANGUAGE. D8< good luck, and it's only one year left! Try talking to a friendly person that is nice to everyone and i'm SURE they'll let you in!

[Vexaim 1]

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[SavageNymph 7]

Wow, has this turned into like one of them help circles where everyone like sits in chairs and shares they're issues? o.o 8D