A General Apology (to KH13-ers from 2014 and earlier eras)

[Think Pink 1,967]

Hey there everyone, 

 

I left this site years ago (2014 maybe??) so I don't know how many people will remember me or if the right people will see this thread, but I will make an attempt anyway. I occasionally think of this site/drama that went down with people here, but these past few months it has really weighed on me. Now that I'm nearing my graduation from college (I think I was last on this site as a high schooler?), it's time for me to start thinking about a career. And I don't know what kind of job I want, but I do know the kind of person I would like to be when I get there. I want to be better than I am. So recently I've been reflecting on my past mistakes and behavior and how I can avoid repeating history again as I go forward. One thing I am truly regretful for is the way I treated some people on this site. 

 

I'll keep it brief: I was a transphobic, abusive "friend" who argued with people and whipped up unnecessary drama. I even created a Tumblr just to perpetuate these unkindnesses. Much of what I put on this site was a lie. I liked creating an escape here and pretending to be someone else. I liked being able to construct an identity out of nothing and make friends without ever feeling embarrassed about who I am (though, obviously, I was not a good friend in return). Basically, I was a liar and worse, a bully towards the end of my time on this site. And this is behavior that is disgusting and I am so ashamed of on its own. But as someone who was bullied (offline) myself, it is even more revolting to me now that I would bully others, even knowing damn well how much pain that inflicts. 

 

So here is what I came back to say. Anyone I ever hurt or offended or was just plain rude to: I'm sorry. There was no excuse for my behavior and I hope you see this apology. I would've reached out to you privately instead of making a spectacle here, but I can't remember those usernames or Tumblr URLs anymore. I know this drama is all years past, but it just felt wrong to me not to ever apologize for the awful way I treated others on this site (and off of it on Skype and Tumblr ) and I hope I didn't ruin this website or any other for you with my behavior. I'm sorry for everything and I sincerely hope you're all doing well. 

 

I know that apologizing does not absolve me of any blame or make things right. I just wanted to put it out there for anyone that I hurt that I know what I did was wrong, I own and acknowledge it, I will never be that kind of person again, and I wish you the absolute best. I appreciate the friendship and kindnesses you all showed me, even when I was being cruel in return. You're better and stronger people than I. 

 

EDIT: I would ideally like to have this account deleted, but I know that's not something they're willing to do. So I'm going to ask for it to be permabanned instead. I wish everyone old and new the best of luck  

Edited November 22, 2017 by Think Pink

[Mystics Apprentice 2,397]

Hey, Lexi, I do indeed remember you. : ) I've often wondered what happened to you after you left the site. I'm glad to see that you are okay.

 

It takes a lot of bravery to own up to mistakes and admit what you've done wrong, so I commend you there. We did speak on some deep topics, some of which I'm no longer certain are true, but I won't hold this against you. We all make mistakes and do things that we aren't proud of.

 

Good luck in your future endeavors.

[Weedanort 8,786]

I remember you somewhat, I never talked with you on chat, if I'm not mistaken

 

Good luck with your graduation and future job

[MasterXemnas 2,285]

Fool. Very mature. I, too, was a big jerk on this site a while back. I'll never apologize and don't feel bad about it one bit, but that's big of you to do so. 

[Kaweebo 3,617]

I've been here since October 2013 and I can't say I remember you. But hey, anyone who's willing to own up to their mistakes deserves respect. Thanks. 

[VisitJoan 2,713]

Lexi,

 

Yes, I do remember you. It’s nice to see that you’re doing well. I think everyone of us has done things that we wish we hadn't. Things we are ashamed of, things we wish we could erase. But that’s in the past. What’s important is the kind of person you are now. You’ve realized that what you’ve done is wrong, and you’ve admitted it and apologized for it. We shouldn’t have the past hang over us and so I won’t judge you based on what you’ve done in the past.

[Snow 1,800]

Hey Lexi! I'm sure you're already long gone by now since it's been three days since the thread was made, and I just want to tell you that even if you were that way, I still considered you a good friend and nothing will change that. (Maybe the reason everybody's so accepting and kind is because it's a KH fansite? :huh:  :huh:  :huh: )

I hope everything works out for you and you meet all your goals, both career-wise and personal, and I'm happy you're taking the steps to realize them. If you ever need friends or anybody to talk to, KH13 will always be here for you if you ever want to come back, we'd welcome you with open arms.

[Cricket 1,180]

I just saw this and I know your account has been permanently banned now, but I hope you have a wonderful life, Lexi. I enjoyed talking to you when we did, and I was not perfect either and ashamed of my past here too and who I was. I'm glad you are moving forward and good luck with life!