Awakened

[Sorage55 10]

A depression-like state is my real self, though. I am not depressed or in any way a negative emotion, when i'm myself, I just...stare, and think. If I were myself in public, I would have no friends, and no one to talk to. I would still be cursed with that demon inside me, and tortured.

[EpiXauce 19]

-Walks up to mike-

Ahem...

-Tap tap-

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KISS DE GIRL SORAGE, KISS DE GIRL

[Sorage55 10]

Eheh, well then....I wish I could.

[Giginha 22]

You know what's your problem? You're just like some people I know, always afradi fo the consequences, what will happen, what others (in the case her) will think, etc. If you don't ask her, how will you know? It's better to do anything you feel you have than keep wondering if that's right or not and let time pass by. Go on Sorage. (Sorry if this was a bit ... agressive? My way of making people go on )

[Sorage55 10]

Well apparently, she told me about 3 days ago that she has a crush on me, while we were talking online. And of course, I was able to muster up the courage to say I like her as well. But now, I am still nervous as Hell. As I possibly always will be.

[Giginha 22]

You can be nervous, everyone feels nervous, but you have to overcome it, that's what will truly help, not letting that feeling become fear, and this fear stop you from hitting your goals.

[Eterna 274]

Well apparently, she told me about 3 days ago that she has a crush on me, while we were talking online. And of course, I was able to muster up the courage to say I like her as well. But now, I am still nervous as Hell. As I possibly always will be.

 

Nah, it passes.

[Sorage55 10]

There have been plenty of holy signs sent from above, noticing me to "Take a risk" or "To tell the truth" or a song I suddenly remember in my mind playing certain lyrics that tell me more on about it.

[Giginha 22]

Sorage, this is more than signs, there are things in life to which you can't wait for a sign to know it is right, correct or true, for those you'll have to search for your own answers, your own signs, things that come from yourself. Sorry if I'm not very good at explaining

[Sorage55 10]

I suppose so, mate. My heart screams "Yes" to the extent of its cries, but my mind commands "No" for I must hide.

[Giginha 22]

Why not follow your heart? Sometimes the logical decision isn't the best.

[Sorage55 10]

Ah, but even if she says "Yes", what do children do these days for dates? My friends say we can just traverse about the mall for an hour or so and not spend a dime. But on what day? How would the conditions be? So many questions so little time!

[Giginha 22]

You're exagerating, and you shouldn't worry so much about spending money, I know you're poor and all, but if she really likes you she won't mind if you're in no condition of spending a great amount of money on her. I don't know what people do on dates either, but I'm quite sure that if you invite her out, take her for dinner or something (nobody said expensive) and start a conversation, things will flow correctly.

[Sorage55 10]

I suppose time answers all questions.

[Keyblader 325]

Dang, and I thought all this stuff was fiction. I must be as blind as a bat...It sounds tough, but I'm glad that you are out, you sound better off than I am...Think of it this way, if it is God's intent for you to be with her, it is likely that it will happen, there is a purpose for everything in your life, even if it seems so off from the nature that people describe God to be, there is always a purpose, to make you stronger, give you new experiences, I am sure of this, yet, I have yet to live by this, I struggle with my own issues and still have to give them to God...I feel trapped sometimes even though I know He can get me out...I'm confused and struggling to find the way out even though I practically know it, yet my situation isn't as 'dire' as yours, but yet, it is just as important, everyone seeks for a better purpose, a new life, and there is only one way to achieve that...God. We can do absolutely nothing and He must do absolutely everything, and for Him to do that, we must surrender. I know this to be true, but yet I don't know how to apply it to myself, my mind is clouded with confusion and doubt, every time I think about God, I feel as if I know nothing...I however am happy that you have found your 'something,' I just ask that you hope that I find mine...

 

I'm sorry, I kinda feel like I'm rambling...My knowledge about this is good and terrible at the same time, and it won't save me either...even devils know all these things, but they are still lost...So it does me no good...I can't be saved of my own knowledge and I can do absolutely nothing that will earn my salvation, it is a free gift from God, all I must do is accept it and His character will enter me...It's the same with everyone on this world...Things were never meant to be like this...All of our situations, our torments, our happiness, our trials, everything is related to choice, 'we' chose this situation, and we can choose to have what we lost...The deep connection with God that was originally intended...I feel like I am expressing my own feelings and that this isn't going to be accepted, but no matter, I am who I am and no one else, if this is who I am then so be it...If it isn't, then who am I?