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Firaga

Member Since 14 Dec 2011
Offline Last Active Oct 22 2017 10:50 AM

Topics I've Started

I'm Trying To Be Better

22 October 2017 - 01:52 AM

As I've said numerous other times before, I don't really go to this side of the forums because I'm not really one to really open up about my personal life or anything like that. Still, I've been a little frustrated with some things in my life recently so I just kind of wanted to get some things out. Forgive me if this sounds rambly, it's very late and I'm very tired, but I just really need to get this out.

I just want to say that if you're someone who feels like I'm a bit of a nuisance or I've just cause some kind of altercation with you or other people in the past... I'm sorry. I really am. I don't think I've really had the best reputation around here if I'm perfectly honest. I mean sure, I try and paint myself as the funny guy who makes lame jokes and does role-plays and writes really random crap and stuff, you know, someone when everybody knows and enjoys being around with. But more I look back at the stupid things I've done and the arguments I've had and the many people I feel like I have hurt... the more I realize that I'm just not very good person to be around.

I come off as someone who wants to feel superior to everybody, no matter what it is, and well cause any amount of fuss or agitation just to get my way.

I really do try to be good. I'm at a point in my life where I don't have much of an excuse either. I'm freaking 21. I have to be better than this. Hell, I NEED to be better than this... but I'm just not.

No matter how hard I try I make the same mistakes, I hurt the same people, and the cycle just keeps continuing until those people get sick of me and leave my stupid ass for good.

That's NOT who I want to be. I want to be the guy who people can be with a feel like they don't have ANY problems. Kind of person that people can feel safe and comfortable with.

But maybe I'm just not comfortable with my own self. Maybe despite everything I've experienced and actually learned from in life, I'm still at a point where I just can't bring myself to be happy with who I am and thus, I can't help but bring other people down too...

I'm not saying I have depression. I don't have the need to kill myself or feel worthless or anything like that. I do think there's some good in me and I do think I am worthwhile as a person. But at the same time, I acknowledge that I have flaws and so does everybody else... but when you step back and realize that a certain flaw of yourself has caused you more sadness and frustration then it's warranted, maybe it's time to change.

But I can't. I CAN'T freaking change. It's because of me at that an argument starts, continues, and ends. It's because of me that I get asked to not the around certain areas are talk to certain people. I'm ALWAYS the one at fault... and I only realized after it's done that I shouldn't have been the bad guy. I had a chance to walk away to be a better person, and yet, I chose not to. I'm a goddamn idiot who is utterly baffled that I even HAVE friends anymore...

Even then, how long am I going to have those friends until they leave me too. When does get to a point where I am just completely alone with only myself to blame?

Again, I'm not depressed. I'm just angry with myself. I'm angry that I have to make other people angry. Thank you only stop myself from being angry after the damage is already done.

I really am trying to be better, every single step of the way... but as all the affirmation ranting above showed, I don't think I'm doing a very good job.

Maybe some of you agree or disagree. I really do feel like I've met so many amazing people just on these forums alone and yet I've caused you so much grief that some you don't even want to talk to me anymore... I dunno. I just figured that getting all these emotions out would be better than just leaving them bottled in...

But just to reiterate: I really am sorry for everything I've done. I am very, truly, honestly sorry. I just want to be better. I really do.

Interest Check: "KINGDOM HEARTS | RE:ALIGN"

16 October 2017 - 07:52 PM

Helloooooooo, friends.  :lol:

 

I'm back again with another interest check and I promise that this premise will actually be interesting this time.  I've been kicking around this idea for a bit and I think it's finally ready to show off and see if I can garner an audience. Either that or it's shit, but hey, that's why we're here to test it out.  :tongue:

 

Without further ado, cue the synopsis that I totally didn't think up off the top of my head in less than five minutes!!~

 

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The world is a wondrous place, isn't it? 

 

This, our world filled with imagination and excitement... connected by the force of Light and the strength our Hearts. Where humans and animals, knights and magicians, fairies and spirits, and all other beings of all shapes and sizes live in harmony. Truly, this is paradise.

 

 

But there is still such a thing as "trouble in paradise" after all.

 

Where there is Light, there is Darkness. Where there is Darkness, there lies those who have no Heart... those who are Heartless. Those who will do anything to destroy the Light and take the Hearts away, who thrive in conflict. In treachery. In war.

 

So you might ask yourself: how can I, a follower of the Light, do what I can to protect what I hold dear? Am I really that capable of becoming the beacon of hope in which the Light will shine through upon those who wish to bathe our world in complete and utter Darkness?

 

And the answer is... yes. You can.

 

-- PLEASE OPEN --

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And there we go. Seems simple enough right? ... okay, maybe not. Let me shed some more light on the situation then, heh heh-okay fine, I said "light" too many times...

 

As the premise should have hinted at, this is an alternate universe take on Kingdom Hearts that has a Keyblade academy in it... I didn't say it was original, alright?  :lol:

 

There's more to it though: every world that we know in the Kingdom Hearts plane of existence is not separated into various worlds that require a spaceship made out of Lego blocks to enter through (barring the ones I don't like or make up for the purposes of fanservice) They're all connected into one single world, kinda what we imagine the universe was like before the events of the games in the "Age of Fairy Tales".

 

And in this realm, the place we know as Daybreak Town is the central hub where all the original characters live... well, most of them. There's some secrets here and there that I don't want to spoil just yet.

 

But to make things easy, here's all you need to know: AU, Academy, make your own student, make your own Keyblade with your abilities and junk, and embark on an adventure where all the worlds are connected from the start and feature characters that were introduced after we knew the worlds were disconnected i.e. Mickey Mouse. So don't be surprised if you see a certain protagonist crop up and be one of your classmates as well as a few other students that you might know from different time periods...

 

Sooooo, that's it. Please let me know what you think below. Stay frosty-oh wait, I'm a fire guy... uh... flaming? Wait, that doesn't work either... just comment, dammit!  -.-  -.-  -.-


REVIEW: "Saban's Power Rangers"

19 July 2017 - 12:03 AM

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Back again for the first time, for the last time... probably not the last time depending on my mood, but hey, I'm doing another review!

 

... You guys are going to read this one, right? I mean, I know you're probably busy with your everyday lives, but you know, I like writing these things and it kinda disheartens me that I keep seeing nobody really comment on them or anything. Yeah, views are a thing, but for me, actual written responses are much more valuable. I mean, am I not that good of a reviewer, do I need to do things differently? If that's true, then you can tell me that, but you actually do have to comment-okay okay, I'll stop. Just forget, let's just dive in.

 

So, when this movie was coming out way back, I did my best to cover as much news as possible because I was genuinely excited and was looking forward to seeing it when it come out... and of course, I missed it when it hit theaters because I'm a broke loser.

 

HOWEVER -- I got to see it finally! And now, I feel obligated to say my complete thoughts about it to honor those past threads I made about the news. So here we go.

 

Without further ado, IT'S MORPHIN' TIME!

 

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MEANWHILE

18 July 2017 - 06:48 PM

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Get it? Cuz he's a fireman... and those are superheroes... and... you know...

 

In all seriousness, I found this after reading an article about the fires in British Columbia, so you know, good on the men with big hearts and bigger hoses for their efforts.


WeRateDogs Gives No H*cks

11 July 2017 - 01:37 AM

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Tom better run for the hills if he knows what's good for him.