(Ok this one is probably the best I've got. I've had some things come up these past months and I gotta say this sums it up.)
Getting ready to go just not quite so easy,
I thought it would be faster than this,
All calm cool and breezey,
But here's the thing I've got a lot to miss.
My family is here and my friends are here,
All of my things and everything I need,
I won't leave without sheding a tear,
But all of these things my doubts feed.
Did I make the right choice?
Yes without a doubt I did.
Once I'm there will I be able to silence my voice?
For nineteen years I have kept it hid.
It's not that easy I keep telling myself,
I just want to know I'll have someone,
But I gotta put all my emotions on the shelf,
When I get on that plane I am the only one.
I am the only one there who cares,
I am the only one there who sees,
I am the only one there who breaks,
I am the only one there who cries out in pain,
and all these things I leave behind...
No more tears,
No more sorrow,
I must forget my fears,
Read my letters and from them strength borrow.
I am not going to go down,
I will push until my body breaks,
I will move over this like a storm over a town,
Even if my whole world quakes.
I am not going to fall,
I'm going to rise,
At the end I'll stand tall,
Touch the skies.
This is how it will be,
All that I ask of you,
Is to put your trust in me,
You'll see what I can do.
Then when I'm out,
I'll make damn sure to come see you.
That way I can shout,
How greatful I was for doing what you do.