ehhh..... ehhhhhhhh?

[Kaiso 2,764]

I think I am kind of on my last leg on here... this is really just kind of my honest thoughts I just felt like throwing out there...

To be completely honest I have been for the past five months…ever since I got to college really. You see, when I first logged on here back in the day, it was when I was using the internet as a crutch to escape from reality and as cliché as that sounds to me as I’m writing this right now, that’s really what I used places that I constantly logged onto every day as: an escape. There were times in high school when I really didn’t have the best of days, and there was even one year when I almost would have never been able to turn back from it all and I probably would have never gotten to this point I am at right now. There are even people, many people if not lots of people, who I have met on here that have honestly helped me get through the tougher parts of my life and I thank all of you for that. If you guys honestly were a bad group of people to be around, I would have probably never met you all!!!

Honestly I do not regret any choices I’ve made on here, and I am very fortunate to have been given a spot to work to some degree on here. I truly did enjoy the four years helping you out Daniel, and they were fun at times, shitty at others, but despite the bad times it was really kind of a great place when I needed it most. I remember when I was just a member and there was like maybe 40 members on here. It was quiet, but it was still really pretty great. When I started talking to Cella and Daniel things were pretty great too, and then I slowly watched more and more members get on and it slowly grew to the site that it is now.

Granted I have been here four years, so when anyone tries to tell me how horrible the site is now I kind of honestly ignore your sass because clearly you either haven’t been here that long, or you honestly haven’t paid attention enough to the site in the past. I am preaching to the choir but honestly I am not on enough anymore to even be able to help, but you kind of get out of stuff what you put into it…. Yeah I know, I know, it does sound really annoying when someone says it but the truth IS kind of a bitch to hear.

But anyways, I loved logging onto this website. I loved the community when I was in high school a lot too. Ever since college though, I kind of felt different about it, like I don’t really need it anymore. As much as I do enjoy it, I feel like I’ve grown out of it really. Ever since maybe all of the stuff that happened in November/December when I tried my best to help out with whatever issues that were going on and kind of got all my effort thrown back into my face and I kind of got indirectly told by people that I was doing nothing when I really was, kind of was the last straw for me.  I never do anything to piss anyone off when I am acting as a moderator, I am never doing anything to hurt people, I always did what I felt was best to keep peace, and I tried my best to do whatever I could. It didn’t always work all the time, but I never stopped trying to do my job. I guess part of it is my fault, I guess I didn’t make my intentions clear when I tried to help with issues??? Anytime I do something it wasn’t really to harm anyone, if I do something to your posts or did something to a thread it was for good reason and I am sorry that I was a bit preoccupied with some personal matters to remember to tell you that I did something??? I truly am???? I am not a heartless person and I hope you understand that I never do try to pick on anyone when I am doing my job???? There were some people that kind of treated me as if I do that and honestly I don’t???? I am sorry if it is my fault, I never took the chance to talk to you for you to truly get to know me which could have caused your judgment on me to be pretty poor and I am sorry!!! I am sorry if I ever came across as rude to you as well…

Nonetheless I do not think everyone is a bad member at all, most people here are really great people!!! Now, some people are little shits and provoke arguments to cause really petty drama and some people get really upset over some really ridiculous things and cause MORE drama, but regardless I do think a lot of you, if not most of you are actually really quality and make my time spent here pretty firetrucking great.

But as I started to get involved with things outside of the internet more when I got to college, I’ve started to grow out of my depression and unhealthy state of mind I’ve started to realize that a lot of my negativity that I still hold within myself can sometimes be traced back to my time spent on the internet. There are just petty things and really unnecessary issues I read up on or involve myself with that cause negativity to flow back into my life that is really just unhealthy. I just really don’t need it anymore. This website was something I used as an escape in the past, and I really don’t have a need to hide from anything anymore. Although I do love this website I feel that it has served its purpose for me, and I really did enjoy my time here!! Don’t get me wrong!! I just feel it’s time to stop getting on all the time and start focusing on more important things in my life than a website about a video game where a kid swings around a massive key as a weapon. A lot of things that are bothering people on here now I just find really petty to be honest and I do not mean any disrespect! I just feel as if I have used up my will to moderate this website as I am right now. I don't feel a need to have to deal with some of the really rather ridiculous issues that emerge on here anymore.

 

Danne I did enjoy my time here, I did really appreciate how much you loved my help around the site! I was very fortunate to meet you and others on here, it was a great time here! Granted I'll probably still log on but if you don't want me to stay as a moderator due to inactivity that is perfectly fine!! I am okay with not being a moderator I actually don't mind! I haven't minded for months if you wanted to have me step down if it wasn't obvious. You don't have to keep me on if you don't want to! It is alright!!! If you do whatever man! I'm fine with it! I'll help if you really need me? But I probably won't be on the website really much??? I just don't feel a need to log on anymore like I do. I am fine with your decision whatever it may be! Give another person a chance, let someone else have their time to work! I think I've spent plenty of time here. c:

 

tl;dr I'm kind of done yeah let's party

 

I mean if u really want to talk to me my tumblr is supersodapop

 

 

 

I said I would post porn but part of me really is too lazy as firetruck to do so

so here is a link I shit you not don't say i didnt f ucking warn you because clearly I did

 

http://zombooru.com/_images/85060b1782bb5582fb9947dc5177cce8/17305%2520-%2520breasts%2520gif%2520kingdom_hearts%2520kingdom_hearts_chain_of_memories%2520marluxia%2520mike_inel%2520namine%2520nude%2520reach-around%2520tentacles%2520uncensored%2520vines.gif

 

 

 

[Demyx. 10,064]

I don't think you have any reason to be sorry. Good luck with everything. Sorry if I cause any problems around here.

Edited May 3, 2013 by Xaon

[Kirie 3,489]

I honestly didn't mind when you were moving some threads I did. Never thought you were pretty strict too for being a mod

I find you as a very fun mod. (including the rest mods too)

[Javelin434 3,164]

We all grow up eventually. Reality catches up, and things that once brought you joy now die hard, replaced with new interests and priorities.

 

As a new chapter begins on your life, at least you know you can visit back anytime you want, and smile at the community of friends that you have made here on the site. Personally I wish I could have at least get to know you better, but it seems too late for that now. All I can say is best of luck to your future endeavors, and if anything, at least stay loyal to the Kingdom Hearts games

 

I know that when I get my sorry a$$ into a prestigious university, I too shall walk this path. We all will eventually. Friends that we have made here will become strangers again, and sometimes you may wonder "Why the hell did I join this site anyway." When that time comes, this place, the interest in the game series will become nothing more than a possibly cherished memory of your childhood or adolescence, the equivalent of Pokemon to the 90's generation as you realize that you are now an adult. Regardless, the memories of the game and this site will linger on within, a more peaceful and innocent (hopefully) time of your life.

 

Sad to hear that you'll be gone, but as I said before this will happen to all of us eventually. 

Edited May 3, 2013 by Javelin434

[TheKingdomkid 1,194]

You don't have to be sorry those people just don't understand and get cranky when something they made gets locked or whatever but you can't let them get you down, it's gonna be sad that you are leaving but you said you will log in every now and then so that will be nice. I wish you the best in your future in college and beyond

[Hei 3,233]

Even though I don't know you, like...at all. GONNA MISS THAT MOD NAMED KAISO, and I hope everything goes jazzy in your future and all that stuff.

[Weiss 8,279]

(why the firetruck is everything bold)

It's sad to hear you're leaving You were probably one of the most awesome people I met here and a great mod so it sucks to hear you're leaving. Best of luck with everything, Kaiso.

Edited May 3, 2013 by Weiss

[HarLea Quinn 26,501]

Well I hope everything works out for you and thank you for all your hard work helping the site . Hope to still see you around in the future if you pop in now and then .

[Sora96 17,256]

All of our original moderators gone......

 

So I'm going to be the last veteran staff member?

 

I can't but help look at all these recent departures/retirements like a football team. It is my religion after all.

 

I remember when I joined KH13.com, KairiSora06 was one of the first people I met. And she is one of my earliest KH13 memories. KairSora06xCellar Door, Rainbow Parties, the Kingdom Hearts hentai and Amber Cole blowjob...

 

Kaiso, you have always been one of the people I respect the most here. And that won't ever change.

 

I'm glad to see you won't be leaving. 

[Keyblader 325]

Kinda feel stupid that I never really tried to have a chat with you :C  (I think? Maybe I did a long time ago? I dunno, that would have been like 2 years ago 3: )  But anyways, I kinda feel this is sort of a mutually good/bad situation.  I know it will be sad for the members who knew you a lot better than me, and it is, but I'm glad to see that things are going well for you in the sense of real world and what not.  Sure, it's fun to ramble on about a kid who bashes people upside the head with a giant ass key, but when it comes down to it, there are always priorities.  I wish you the best of luck in life and all that mess, and..um...I honestly don't know?  I'm bad at this stuff.  So, in order to make up for my inconsistencies, here's something about nothing for no apparent reason other than the strictly applicable reason of "I felt like it."

 

 

 

 

 

[FireRubies1 1,325]

I wish I could have gotten to know you and I hope I wasn't one of those who troubled you at all owo.

I want to write a lot about how much I would miss and stuff..... but I can't make words come to mind.

Always feels weird to see a mod go 

[Weedanort 8,786]

It's sad to see that such an old member's leaving

 

But we respect your choice.

 

Take care Kaiso

[Protoman 1,974]

u did good kaiso

proud of u

[Javelin434 3,164]

Wow, reading my previous post that I did last night, was probably the most depressing thing that I have typed out in a while...

God damn, I just made myself depressed now

Edited May 3, 2013 by Javelin434

[4Everbee 1,365]

 

 

Damn, I remember you were still are /shot the only mod I liked. 

I'm gonna miss you, even tho I never really talked to you.   (I suck at goodbyes too god. ) Good luck with college and everything. I hope everything turns out well for you in the future. C:

[Think Pink 1,967]

You always seemed so nice around the forums, it's sad to see you go. I hope things get better for you and that you have a great time! 

[Rob 5,571]

I'll miss you Kaiso. You did a great job as a mod. Good luck.

[VENROXAS 152]

Ever since i joined I really looked up to you, coded by days, and cricket, you guys are some of the best mods I've seen on any website I've been to. Reality does happen, sometimes harder than other times. I was not on early enough to enjoy the time you guys put into this site along with Daniel and Aaron but from what I've seen you guys have made this site pretty grand and well known. "Remember not what you know, or whom you know, but live and enjoy today and smile for there is another day to bring you". 

Edited May 4, 2013 by VENROXAS

[Bearanort 788]

Good luck with everything and take care Kaiso. You gonna miss us