And I need to get this out.
A few months ago my friend from another site left the site, I emailed him and we talked that night for at least an hour.
Now.. We don't even speak,
I asked him why he won't talk to me and he said he got sign for something and now he can't talk to anybody online.
I got his email when I got home from FL.
I ran to the bathroom and start crying. I blame myself for this. I seen his name in a name and whenever you see somebody name in a dream that never good. But at the time I was mad at him so I didn't tell him to be careful or anything.
Now there's one of my friends. I'm gonna call him M.
M I'm always there for. But when it comes to me. He never there.
But I always end up yelling at him. But I start yelling at him when C left.
C was my best friend and I told him everything, I even told him how the Gypsy life works.
Now he's gone and I'm alone.
And for the past few weeks. I been trying to be friends with some Gypsy girls.
Let call one A and V.
A is about 13 and she never talks to me. She invited me to her b-day party and she didn't say 2 words to me.
And it's sucks. I been trying to make friends. But none of them really talk to me.
I have my cuz's. But they live in New York.
And V is about 11 and she nice but she can't text me and my mom and dad don't like her mom and dad so we can't hang out that much.
In the past few days,
I been feeling sick and sad. I feel like crying and breaking something,
Oh and I'm annoying everybody! Even M!
I been trying not to but I always do!
Top it all off.
My little sis is a bitch to me and I'm not doing anything.
The only bright side to all of this is that my big brother is having another baby.
And hopeful it will be a boy and I can name it.
Sorry but I needed to get this out.
Edited by 4Everbee, 04 May 2012 - 12:32 AM.