Last Friday was the day. I build up all of my forces to just go ahead and tell him. I had the perfect opportunity. He was such a nice guy about it. I'm still kinda surprised.
It's implied that he doesn't return my feelings, but at least he knows now. He said we're still friends, that it doesn't mater, but I know that we'll be as far apart as ever. After all, he's probably straight, he probably thinks I'm some creepy, stalking, "gentleman".
Anyone would. And I kinda am.
I thought it'd be easier after telling him but now I just don't know what to do at all, not even where to begin. I wanna get over him, but I also don't.
It's so confusing.
I've been thinking... Maybe I should try going out with a girl, to see how it's like. But I can't even imagine that. And besides, what girl would accept to go out with... ME?
Is anyone that desperate? And who would I ask out? Not a close friend, I'd lose my friendship with that person as soon as I broke up. After all, if I went out with a girl, it wouldn't be anything serious... at all.
After everything I went through with him, having "no' for an answer was kinda rough, even if he didn't outright say yes or no, and even though he said it didn't matter.
I asked for advice from tons of people, and figuring out which advices i should follow is a bit difficult, especially since I'm not even sure what I want anymore.
Just wanted to share this with you guys...
Edited by Kinode, 29 April 2012 - 03:59 PM.