Warning: Probs will have colorful language and yeaah
is quite a frightening thing. It makes you act quickly and without thought, the outcomes varying from wonderful to awful.
In my case, this impulsive nature has caused me many problems. From kissing that cute red head with hypnotizing eyes to telling the big shot of the school to suck a dick when he offered to ‘fix’ me. Of course, the latter could’ve been avoided if it wasn’t for the former. But who could resist the temptation?
She had been standing so close to me, batting those pretty eyelashes, and I just thought about how nice it would be to kiss her again and suddenly I was. She had pushed me away after a few long seconds and with an obviously faked horrified look walked away. Why was she horrified? Might have been the fact that we were in the middle of the hallway and practically everyone had caught a glimpse at the two girls making out in public. Or at least I wished we had gotten to make out. It was a measly peck on the lips if anything. How lame was that?
Well, the point is, I basically outed her and myself without meaning to. And since then, the gorgeous redheaded Kay has ignored me, hiding behind her ‘popular’ friends, telling everyone how disgusted she was and that she definitely didn’t swing that way. Of course I knew better. She admitted her attraction to girls a few weeks ago at a party, when I had gotten a bit tipsy and she helped you upstairs to lie down, stealing just a small kiss at first which involved into tongues and teeth clashing. The best part was that she was completely sober and that I weren’t just some dumb ‘only bisexual at parties’ girl.
Since then, we’d gotten closer, and my attraction to her changed from simple lust to a deep affection and caring for her. Would I call it love? I’m not sure, but there was definitely something there. At least more than what I felt for the past girlfriends I had that were simply for my entertainment. Not that they minded, I mean it was pretty obvious we just needed a bit a fun and fooling around.
Thank goodness that information hadn’t gone around. I mean, people would doubt my sexuality and think I am just some dumb ‘only bisexual at parties’ girl. This, by the way, is completely untrue. I’m just some dumb lesbian with a stupid impulsive nature.
A stupid girl who couldn’t help but kiss her secret girlfriend, if that’s what we even were, in public, knowing fully well she didn’t want to come out yet. And with that one act, I managed to ruin the first relationship I was truly happy in.
It’s really just sad. Fae and Kay Young sounded really cute in my head too.